Its been real long time since i last blog.. wonder if there is sitll anyone visiting my blog or not..hmmm.. sorry guys for not blogging for so long.. i was real busy with stuffs..

I got back my lab test... i failed by 2 marks.. this is really so disappointing...wats going on...?
Wats happening to me...

My grandfather passed away last thursday.. i felt so sad and lost.. its like.. another beloved one of mine had gone.. All the memories that we had when we visited our grandparents horse every week.... Like the fun we had with cousins and the warm care and concern that was showered on us by our beloved grandparents.. was all gone... gone... Just like wat others said... Grandparents are like the main heads binding the families together.. once the heads are gone.. so are the binding/bonding of the families... and this is happening to me... I really felt so sad about it... why doesn't anyone cherish what we have now...only after we lost it den we got to learn how to cherish but its too late.. i really hope my cousins will keep in contact.. My grandparents are one of the loving couples... Really admire them... I missed you ah gong and ah ma and also my grandmother...

I also had some problem with my gal... that we keep ending up quarrelling.. i really dun wish to see the same outcome over and over again...I only want to cherish her and hope she will cherish me as much too.. this past few weeks, i did not had any good sleep cos i cant stop myself from thinking things like.. wat is she doing now?;Did she miss me?; Have she eaten anything..? and whether she is happy..? It really breaks my heart whenever i see her like not happpy or sianz.. her mood really affects mine...all i wish to do was to cheer her up and i would wanna do anything just to see her smile... maybe i am just no use.. i know i should not think this way.. but i really cant stop myself from thinking this way..I really long for the times when we just got together and all the happy memories we had.. I really want to retain it this way forever... i know i may sound foolish or naive.. But i just want to enjoy and cherish every mins and seconds we have Like a Real-Loving BoyGirlFriend while we are still able to have before everything is really gone..Cos i understand 1 point is that there is nothing last forever.. To me, i am quite a easily- contented guy.. 1 simple and sweet msg from her is enough to make my day so happy... I really miss her... miss her so...

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?


i really did not wanted to post anymore.. but i cant help it.. i really felt so sad and stress-up this few days... i got no one to talk to abt my problems.. all i can do is keep to myself.. we have been quarrelling alot this few days again and my heart really break each time we start quarrelling.. i onli wish that we could stay the same as before but whenever after few months of patch back,, the same things happen again... and each time i am the one trying to hold on.. i really felt so tired and empty.. i really dun know wat to do anymore.. no matter wat i do also wrong.. the outcome just seems to be against me..i have never felt this way towards a girl before thats why i am holding on so hard... it really hurts so much.. pardon me if anyone is reading this.. at first i did not want to post at all.. cos i really cant hold my feelings anymoe.. why issit happy moments are always so short and ppl do not cherish until they lost it... i lost before thats why i am really cherishing so hard that others might say i am a fool or wat.. but all i wanted to do is to love a person and cherish her..always hope that she would tell me how she felt towards me and stuffs but no matter how i hope.. it just wont happen..I am really sorry that i cause her stress recently..wo shi zhen xin de ai zhe ni..

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?