Woke up this afternoon with abit of hang-over..dreamt abt her again.. so blur blur.. had lunch at home since my mum cooked.. i went to tbp to meet benben to pass me things..? wat is it? BOMB? lol.. its my present ba.. thanks wor..! we had tiramisu and caramel ice blended at coffee bean as we chatted quite funny.. anyway.. thanks for cheering me up..

At night, i met up with jun to go to rio's chalet as promised for a while.. but guess we were not that welcome..nvm lar..i dun really care.. i went to msg cin but i think i really screwed the whole thing up..i just dun meant it to be that way... why issit so hard for me to be happy and been loved by the one i like the most.. i really felt so miserable.. but after talking with someone.. i felt that i really should not be so selfish as not to consider her feelings..i felt guilty for that..though i always hope my wish will come true but still its still a big big mystery.. i wish i could just void myself off of my feelings but the fact is that i cant.. but i will try not to feel anymore..hahah.... dun worry on the birthday i will not let everyone's effort down no matter wat..

add to my unluckyness.. when we were abt to go home.. jun's car broke down.. battery problem.. suay...waited almost an hour plus for his friend for aid but in the meantime we tried to ask for help from others.. but some singaporeans are just so selfish.. dun even bother to help.. -___- no choice lar.. have wait for his friend before starting up the batt. and go home..

back to dream where i might be happy.. lol.. nights...

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Its Rio's belated Birthday celebration at Pasir Ris NTUC chalet.. his actual birthday is on 20/4/2007... however cant celebrate for him as he is inside tekong training.. well.. i sincerely wish you all the best and stay happy always bro..

After the chalet, i went to meet shan and gang for poly hang out as its been 2months since i last saw or went out with them kinda really missed those days at school and outings.. anyway.. i also received quite alot of msg from friends saying they cant make it for my BBQ.. well its kinda disappointing though... but the worse is that.. i just get a feeling from her that she might be treating me as just a normal friend.. i really felt very sad lor... why am i ALWAYS going on a one-way traffic.. i really hate it!! i cant stand it anymore... just feel like drowning my sorrow with liquor.. drank alot today... but its okay..even if we are just normal friend..i will accept it no matter wat.. all i wish for her is simple..i think she knows it..

feel so sleepy and dizzy... help....! sorry if i make u guys whom care abt me worried.. like always.. i will be fine by tml i hope.. =] nights guys..

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YESH...! my long await weekend is finally here..i am so tired almost everyday especially ytd since ytd did not sleep well..its was fun ytd though with ernest and guys.! this sat and sun so many things to plan and to prepared for my upcoming birthday which is on Wednesday 2nd of May at ECP BBQ Pit 28.. since its my 21th birthday, i am looking forward to it for certain reasons..

today after work.. everyone had their own plans except me -__-... i am tired but more Bored.. wanted to catch a movie... at first tot can go out yat but abit cropped up.. lol.. so yat and fen watch it without me =x LoL... whahahhahha...! went to sri maju to collect ticket with my friend and saw rio and jasmine.. ahhah.. so qiao.. rio fit le sia.. but i believed i will be MORE fit!! muahahhahh! =P while walking home wanted to call cin whether wanna catch a movie since i am still quite awake butt on 2nd thoughts.. cin might be busy with stuffs better ask her next time ba.. ahhaha..! WHY AM I FEELING SO SIANX AND VEX!! >.<>

Just A Song Delication For That Special Somone..( I Miss You by Westlife )

I can’t sleep, I just can’t breathe
when your shadow is all over me baby
don’t wanna be, a fool in your eyes
‘cause what we had was built on lies
and when our love seems to fade away
listen to me hear what I say
I don’t wanna feel
the way that I do
I just wanna be
right here with you
I don’t wanna see
see us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
I miss you...
what would it take, for you to see
to make you understand that I'll
always believe
you and I, can make it through
and I still know, I can’t get over you
‘cause when our love seems to fade away
listen to me hear what I say
I don’t wanna feel
the way that I do
I just wanna be
right here with you
I don’t wanna see
see us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
oh baby I miss you, I do...
‘cause when our love always
fades away
listen to me hear what I say
I don’t wanna feel
the way that I do
I just wanna be
right here with you
I don’t wanna see
see us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
I miss you, I miss you
I do...
I don’t wanna feel
the way that I do
I just wanna be
right here with you
I don’t wanna see
see us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
oh baby I miss you, I do...


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I think i really cant take it anymore... wats wrong with me.. i cant seems to be ready for my birthday at all... ARGHZ..... if only she is here with me... crap.. why am i thinking of this now... why...today something happened..haiz..nvm.. guess no matter wat i do.. she cant feel my feelings ba... LOL...! SAD Again cos guess my birthday wish every year still have not come true.. it muz be the same for this year too... >.<
oh ya.. just to update you guys abit.. I AM GOING TO POLICE NS.. XD lol... but there is still 5 months more to go... totally no mood today le.. SLEEPING TIME!!

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Yesterday was jun's birthday.. we went to his chalet at Changi Village area.. erm.. to be exact.. the place is located at Opposite OCH... kinda spooky place.. lol...the place was big but little ppl.. sad to say so... i am very tired right now cos ytd did really get to sleep well.. to me... its a day to remember 4ever even though its just a few hours .. was really glad and happy.. but guess i wont get another chance like this anymore.. if only time freeze.. LOL... i am just plain stupid.. knowing its impossible.. whahahhah..! in the end i still cant find the answer i want... =[ Well.. timE to SLEEP!

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today i did nt went to work as early in the morning when i woke up felt so unwell and xin ku.. and so.. i went back to sleep.. just dunno why today i just felt like blogging.. maybe i am not feeling happy.. as my birthday is coming...yet i dunno why i just cant totally get myself to feel the motivation at all... dun even know whether will there be ppl even willing to celebrate with me or not since some of my friends are just mia after poly.. sorry to feel so sad.. but i just wanna write down how i feel now in my blog.. since its like some sort of stress relief as i also cant talk to others abt it...just felt that i shd not always bother others abt my matters since everyone also have their own problems...just dunno why i felt its so hard to stand up especially when you are abt to stand up yet you fell down again.. hahaah.... no matter wat i will still try.. i will be back to the normal kelvin tml as usual =D lol..... thats all =P

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been so busy and tired that i am breaking down soon... my schedule...

Mon - Fri ---> AIG

Sat - Sun ---> Sri Maju

you guys maybe wondering why i am working so hard..? cos of money? well..Yes.. thats part of it only.. the actual reason is that even if i did not work on Sat and Sun.. I also cant find friends to accompany me go out.. -__- most of my friends are busy... some of them are working and tired like i do.. some of them are with their girlfriend or boyfriend while some of them are just totally.......... *proof* MIA..

today i did not have much things to do.. only some data keying.. after that would be helping anz doing sorting.. well.. almost the same thing everyday.. lol...was daydreaming today abt my life in poly and secondary school.. kinda miss those days now and also the days with her.. it seems all happy things seems to pass fast.. i need a life man..!

went out with jun,anz and yat to orchard for a walk cos we were bored? hahaha.. no matter ppl says monday blues.. we are really having monday blues man... dunno wat to do.. dunno where to go.. it like sooo super sianz.. played PS3 at paragon a while and saw PSP set.. I reallly want that..! >.< lol ="x">

while we are on the way sending yat home.. we suddenly talk abt past things.. like yat commented my canto is getting from bad to worse.. -.- thanks ah.. no chioce.. too long nv say le.. den i told them my grandma is hokkien speaking ma while my granny is teochew.. so canto i picked up myself.. =D we started talking abt our grandma.. all the happy and sad memories.. I really regret not having more time to spend it with grandma.. talk to her abt my life, my feelings and my problems... i wanna know more abt her.. treat her to eat.. go out with her... and also love my beloved grandma.. its been 6 years since her death yet i still think of her at times and miss her greatly.. lol.. suddenly.. the atmosphere inside the car became so dense and both me and yat got emo.. i shed a tear for my grandma just nw... grandma.. i miss you always..to me you are the best grandma in the world..really wish someone could be here to listen to my woes and share my pain or even just stay by me.. after all i am still a fragile human..

my bday is coming.. wonder how many ppl will celebrate for me this year... it falls on 2/may.. i will be booking a BBQ pit at least.. if i cant get a chalet... i really hope that all my friends will come to celebrate for me... dun forget present!! whahhahha.. =P

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We msg each other ytd.. though it started if a quarrell or rather misunderstanding.. i admit till now i still will think of her..but i really wonder how does she feel....is it the same or..? she said she everyday also think of our problem..so do i...
Sometimes i am just wondering is she running away or am i running away instead..
I guess the reason why i got so upset that day might be due that kind of pain that stuck thrice last time which really hurts so much last time.. imagine seeing the girl you loved so much with someone else really kinda hurt alot..but still i just wanan apologise for losing control of myself..
she also told me to move on.. does she really mean it or words in anger.. i dunno.. does she already put down and move on or..? Is there really no solutions..? why muz we ended up in this way... i also dunno... these are all the questions thats bothering me till now... nevertheless..even if she do not tell me, i will not force .. but for now.. i cant stay unhappy always.. i need to stay the way i am just like in the past.. cheerful - when i first met her and she always wanted me to do so.. i believe the next time we met.. i will be able to let her see a different side of me..even though i still dreamt of us.. i have to admit i am really a fool.. if it were to be others bet they might not done or think the same way as i do.. but i just do.. even if I was just as a normal friend's identity to care for her... hope she will remain cheerful.. I know wat to do now..i wanna thanks all my friends who stood by me till now.. thanks for cheering me up.. without you guys.. i really dunno wat to do.. love u guys.. =P



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Everything was still fine in the morning..went to office.. type type type.. process process process.. still the same things.. but.. after work I went to town to meet Jun, my buddy.. we went to eat and walk around abit..allan called to ask us to catch the movie - Forest Of Death.. kinda lame.. while waiting for him.. we went to play pool at cineleisure.. after the pool session, we went down to wait for allan outside of cineleisure but.... guess wat... i think god is really trying to play me.. just when i turn back to look, I saw cindy and her boy friend so close.. this is the 4th time le.. i felt pain and lost.. its like why now... why tearing up my healing heart again.. why... though alot of ppl may think i am stupid or wat.. but all i wish for was to see her happy even if she is with another guy.. at least i know she is happy thats wat i hope to hear..not lies.. sometimes seeing her msn nick like "wishing that you will walk me home one last time from work" i thought of sending her home but.. guess maybe that person is not me after all..I will wish you luck and hope the angel i gave you will keep u accompany when u are alone.. dun worry abt me..it was nothing worse compare to the past.. i will brace up and get on with my life.. i wanna say i am happy too.. I wanna be HAPPY with the one i like soon.. Thanks for waking me up... It was a nice dream... I will get on this time.. no worries.. i wanna find someone whom i love and love me back deep too.. are u the one..?
Back to normal..
WORK work WORK...

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