Been some days since i last blog.. anyway..for me.. it has already lost the meaning to blog.. i really think my life really has lost its colours and happiness... am i late by a step again or..? am i gonna lose my precious ones again...? I think i am reallly gonna take a break soon... reaching my limits le.. been working almost everyday including weekends for almost 3 months le.. friends around me keep saying i am lifeless.. yes.. i agree... wheere issss my Xin fuu.......? i wish my angel is right here with me now..

btw.. something just totally makes me more sad.. finally got the courage to msg her again yet only to find out a quarrell with her.. I know no matter wat i say or explain will make her feel better anymore.. maybe its my fault for having a liking for others.. but i also a human.. i rather hope that she could be by my side to accompany and cheer me.. I had explained to her le yet i know she wont believe watever things i said but everything i explained is a fact.. i really hope that she could calm down and think over wat i said.. i know last time i did make a terrible mistake but that does not mean i am still the same as last time.. just really hope a have a good chat with her and solved this properly..even if she just treat me as a friend.. i know this time its over cos the way she treat me.. i really feel so depressed right now.. maybe sorry wont mean anything but still just wanna say a sorry...though i really hen bu gan yuan it had to end it this way without clarifying everything properly.. but i really dun wanna hurt her anymore.. maybe i really am not cut out to care for her not to even mention love her.. i am such a failure.. i hope she can find happiness in him or whoever the lucky guy is... no matter wat happens now... i will still stick to the promise i made..

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?


woke up early in the morning.. still felt so sleepy.. have not been able to sleep well at all for this week.. mentally and physically stress out.. felt like almost tearing apart soon.. I really NEED a BREAK.. went to work in a half-sleep mode.. lol.. have to endure unreasonable aunties again.. arghz.. =p
Came back home, heard quarrells from my two sisters.. it just adds up my stress..the only thing i can think of now is...... I felt so tired of everything.. just wanna give up on everything.. and i mean EVERYTHING.. take my bag and get out of singapore to a place where i can relax myself totally without thinking of any problems for now..

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?


Woke up real late today.. work at 9am but only managed to wake up at 8.45am.. of course end up real late.. sorry...nothing much to blog either.. just the same as usual.. work.... finished work.. eat dinner... home... felt my life is kinda messy right now its like a missing jig saw puzzle as mentioned before..

saw today's news.. that a mum got crashed by a big tree while jogging with two other friends.. Her son felt strange that why his mum have not arrived home from jogging for so long.. got kinda worried and went down to find his mum just to find that his mum is dead on the spot.. i felt pity for them.. its like.. tragic things like this happened in life.. just feel that ppl should learn how to cherish and hold unto the one they love before everything became too late.. nobody knows wat will happen tml either.. so as usual.. i am gonna cherish my parents,family.. my friends.. and the one i love be it now or in the future..i have also done some sorting of mind lately.. some things are just not wat it seems to be, be it love or friendship or anything... i had better try to get used to it soon.. =] I will be more mature in times.. bye to the kidish kelvin..

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?


I have been having a stupid error code for almost a week by now.. been unable to blog out my feelings at times when i need to is a torture.. This stupid error code Status code: 1-500-19 makes me unable to create post at all.. damn.. finally.. i found the solution through google and managed to solved it.. phew..

Been having ups and downs emotions for this week.. felt really so lost like a lost lamb.. dunno wat to say, dunno wat to do and dunno how to feel abt my feelings.. msged her a few times.. no reply/call.. felt kinda disappointed whenever i woke up.. but i know she is busy with stuffs.. thats why.. at times whenever i pick up my phone to dial her numbers until the last digit.. I decided not to do so.. as i am afraid to give her stress causing her unhappy..i know i am stupid.. but the least i can do for her now is giving her time to do the things she likes and stay happy always..and when she needs a hand..I will be there for her as promised..

Another thing that has been bothering me.. i just dun understand wat gals are thinking.. dun even know wats real and wats bluff.. i admit that sometimes i think too much due picking up the wrong signal always.. maybe i am just too naive.. haha....

I promised to change to a better me in times...
As yat's advice,I will learn to hide my feelings well so as to not getting hurt by anyone in the future..

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?


Crap.. i woke up very late today.. its abt 4pm when i checked the time.. i had been sleeping for full 12 hrs.. guess i had been really tired from all this.. its really a boring sunday man.. cant seems to find things to do.. felt like.. my life is kinda BORING... its like wat ppl said.. no life...

The idea of BBQ stuck my mind again.. ahha..Called jun and kin over to my house for a short bbq session.. well.. its more like killing time.. cos really too bored le... whahahahh.. when we start the fire, we thought its gonna burn down the corridor man.. -.- LOL.. the smoke makes it looked like our house caught fire.. ahhaha.. damn funny.. ppl passed by looked at us.. got abit PS..but its okay.. Nv see ppl BBQ at HDB ar? LOL... well.. to me.. this is something i have not done for some times le..used to do all this stupid things when we were young.. haha.. missed those days.. i have been thinking a lot of things recently.. i know that for sure i hate to regret.. just wanna face my own feelings like always..this is something she taught me in the past.. i really just hope that she might be here for me now.. i just wanna be happy.. just like any other guy like that so xinfu with someone to love him.. issit really so hard..? ... better stop pinning too much.. arghz.. gotta live my life with minimum regret at least...


Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?


Woke up early this morning.. felt so blue cos alone at home nothing to do.. SIANZ ar.. watch abit of cartoon on kids central, kinda brings me back to childhood.. lol.. checked my friendster and saw lots of birthday wishes but one of them is the most important though it kinda hurt abit.. browsed through her profile and saw some comment from her friends asking her to give up and she also said wat dun want to go back anymore.. it really HURTS alot.. some things are WORTH fighting for.. thats wat she taught me but why cant she believe in us once more..? how stupid of me to go browse her profile.. but i just wanted to reply her letting her know that its not no different it DOES makes a difference.. even if she wanted to give up like her friend's advice den i really got nothing to say too.. but i admit i still cant let go.. aiya.. enough of it.. today is my 21th birthday with many of my friends planning and celebrating for me..

The BBQ pit started late cos kinda stucked in jam.. sorry ppl if i did not really do a good job.. was really busy and shou mang jiao ran.. luckily still got quite a mumber of ppl came at least.. though some ppl i expected did not came in the end.. I cut the cake at about 9 plus.. took lots of pictures.. i expected them to disturb me but i did not expect it to be so far.. the moment allan got the cake, he smash it on my face.. followed by the rest of my friends also smash me.. -__-.. lol.. was fun though... but that was not just it.. they caught me and begin to throw me into the sea.. SAD! lol.. i was totally wet.. when i came out the sea i recalled a Levi ad. the guy wearing levi jeans walking out of the sea onto the beach.. hahah.. went to change my clothes.. and continue eating.. its a Wrong date i guess.. everyone went home soon as tml got work.. kinda sad...but still thanks guys for celebrating with me.. =] I will upload the pictures soon..

Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?


Its a public holiday today.. woke up at 11 plus.. heard the bell of the church at 12pm sharp of every 1st day of the month.. its quite nice to heard that cos once i hear that means its just another 12 hrs to my birthday.. =D

met up with jun and my mum to sheng song to buy some drinks and check other stuffs too..luckily got the help of my brother jun to fetch us else die le.. -__- after sending my mum home, we went to geyland to give pots to my uncle.. saw alot of blanga. =x lol.. but really alot over there... we went to old airport road to have our dinner with his friends and thereafter head straight down to orchard for a short walk and our last stop is at ECP to find our BBQ pit C28. Its not so near mac as i tot.. its nearer to the Burgur king instead.. but luckily our pit have shelter near us.. PLZ DO NOT RAIN TML..! =.=... * pray pray*

i walked along the beach of ECP.. my heart felt so calm and at peace.. was thinking how many ppl will come to my bbq... i called yat at 11:45 like that to scare him abit like that guy whom called to 933 FM saying its his birthday yet no one celebrate for him so he wish to delicate a song for himself.. sad guy.. Our DJ yat delicate happy birthday of many language with canto. too and lastly the Sheng Li Kuai Le to me.. LOL.. its was funny man.. felt happy too...at 12 midnight, received many msg from my friends.. thanks ppl! needed that.. but wat makes me really happpy is that i received call from cin.. really felt kinda touched but abit of disappointment too cos wat i really need is not really that.. but still.. its enough le.. to me.. nothing matters more than her happiness now.. =D in the meantime.. i shall see wat i can do.. LOOKING FORWARD to tml's celebration... lol..

Song Delication To Cin.

愛, 很簡單(陶喆)

忘了是怎麼開始
也許就是對你有一種感覺
忽然間發現自己
以深深愛上你
真的很簡單
愛的地暗天黑都已無所謂
是是非非無法決擇
沒有後悔為愛日也去跟隨
那個瘋狂人是我 喔 I LOVE YOU
無法不愛你 BABY 說你也愛我 I LOVE YOU
永遠不願意 BABY 失去你
不可能更快樂 只要能在一起 做什麼都可以
雖然世界變個不停 用最真誠的心
讓愛變得簡單 I LOVE YOU
我一直在這裡 一直在愛你
I LOVE YOU, OH YES I DO 永遠都不放棄
這愛你的權利 如果你還有一些困惑
OH NO 請貼 我的心傾聽
聽我說着 愛你 YES I DO 我愛你


Would You Be There Love And Be There With Me..?