我的心好沉重。在我的内心的莫个地方总是有一点怪怪的。。 真不知道要如何说起。。 终有一个感觉，我的朋友都没像以前那么要好了。。真得很不习惯。心中感到寂寞。。真的好想像以前一样找个地方来呐喊。。 大海！！
约好了我的朋友来还他的东西便去找anz还harddisk和看电影。。 Thanks for the gift! 哈哈..
回家时，发生了一件事。。 新加坡有那么多的16巴士和那么多的时间。。 却刚好遇到cin在巴士上。。真不知道是巧合/缘分还是老天作弄我。。哈哈。。。不过这次我们就好像很久没有见面的朋友一样。。虽然还有联络但是感觉已经有一点陌生了。。她曾经对我说的话满有道理。。 我们都有各自的朋友和生活了，和以前不一样了。。 我只希望她快乐和开心，我就满足了。。

现在是我该长大了。。 不能再像以前一样像个小孩子了。。 我要和会长大的。。。 我一定要实现我的拥车和理想的家园。。！！

前面的路可能不容易走。。 可是我相信只要不放弃就会有一条路是对的。。。！ 加油。。!丰。。





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Just came back from holidays.. 我的心情好轻松可是又一点烦躁... I am broke again.. =[ crap lar.. gotta work hard to earn all the money back le... lol... during the trip, seen and understand alot of things.. its really time for me to grow up.. there's alot of things waiting for me to do and complete..我要加油..!

I really hope things will get better for me.. cos I am really very tired of been hurt and disappointed.. I hope my friends will stay by me like always.. thanks guys.. oh ya.. thanks yat too.. lol.. appreciated for the trip.. ^^

will blog again soon.. to be continued..

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Here i go again.. out of singapore for a few days... gonna go relax relax and do some sight-seeing while sorting things out... this time is with yat and my other friends.. WEEE...! i am sooo excited.. its.. 12.47am almost 1am le..have to wake up at 5am... Crapz... LoL... k lar.. i go rest a while le.. take care wor all my friends.. MISS ME BA... LOL.. =P

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Another new chapter of my life is about the unfold.. will it be full of sadness again or will it be full of suprises, joyful and memorable event? The next chapter of my story will be Police Days.. (1 yr and 10 months)...

I wonder my life will have wat kind of ups and downs? will my friends still be there for me? will she still be there for me..? I dunno... wat appears in front of me is still kinda pitch black but i still can see a slight beam of light ahead.. hope that its a ray of hope..

Some critical updates abt my life would be... I FINALLY GRADUATED!! with a GPA of 3.23.. 3 Years of diploma studies in NP was really memorable.. still remember when i just got enrolled into year 1, I was just as lost as everyone else.. but soon enough everyone just got close enough to be good friends and even best friends.. met alot alot of ppl along the 3 years of journey.. also learnt how to overcome problems encountered.. be it friendship, relationship or kinship..

For this month of June.. Started a new working environment... no choice.. gotta work to earn some money while waiting for NS.. arghz... am getting tired of waiting and waiting for NS.. I really hope there would be some miracle appearing in my life soon... Holidays is coming for me too..! WEE!!! Finally can enjoyed abit..! YESH!!!

Hope that we wont be so mo sen... its really hurting...

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its another boring day.... been working for this weekend.. no break at all.. kill me plz... next week its my break days.. gotta find things to do.. wanna watch movie like shrek 3 and more.. its been almost a week since she ignored me... felt so pain still.. guess the misunderstanding will just stay the same like us.. its so useless of me.. whenever i saw her nick or msg pin pointing at me.. i really felt so hurt and sad.. the pain is really excruciating.. sometimes i asked myself why do we have to come to this point.. is there really no choice for me.. if so..all the i would hope for is to see her staying happy with her friends and getting good grade in her studies in order for her to realise her dreams to be a teacher.. i believe she can do so.. as for me.. i hope to stand on feet and realising and pursueing my own dream too.. anyway.. i really dunno wat the gals and guys are thinking nowadays man.. its so confusing.. maybe its just me too navie..

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Guess the misunderstanding maybe too late to do/say anything now.. since she still think i am just the same.. i got nothing to say after trying so hard to change.. somehow somewhere in my heart still exist her... will still continue to care for her still even though as a normal friend as i believe she understand me more although there are times she dun.. though i had quite alot of past ex..but to me, she is the first love.. as she is the one that changed me and gave me joy, happiness, sadness and memories.. the one that i put the most effort in...till now.. she still misunderstood me.. really felt so hurt.. maybe the way i handled things are not good i guess..
its gone just like that..

My life have been real messed up this few days.. cant seems to concentrate in my work or even enjoy watever show or outing..went to watch Pirates of carribean with yat,anz,fenfen,ernest and jun at lido.. was funny.. i really like it.. especially Johnny Depp.. was able to make me laugh out from the bottom of my heart.. was kinda stress relief.. its better than drowning myself in wine recently.. Shrek 3 is coming up next.. still remember watch part 1 and 2 with her.. haiz.. nvm.. hope to watch it soon.. sorry to worry you guys recently.. thanks yat for consoling me..just really hope to clear the misunderstanding soon.. really hate to be misunderstood by anyone..especially thinking me as flirt when i am really no longer the same.. hope she remained happy everyday with her friends and thats all i wished for since i cant even stay by her like in the past.. will try to get on my feet fast..

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