Its been really really long time since i last blog.. i can only keep all my feelings here.. cos at least i know there wont be anyone able to see since its been so long..

dear and me have broken up.. and it really hurts so much like a sharp knife pierce through my heart.. it all happen too fast and caught me totally off-guard.. that i totally broke down and lost all my emotions.. no appetite.. no mood..cant sleep at all.. tried to stop thinking but brain wont stop.. keeps thinking and even dream abt her and cry in the night... for 2 year 2 months.. i tot we will be able to last even longer than that.. i was wrong.. totally wrong.. its all my fault.. its been wrong since the day i become too over-sensitive, irritating, possessive and too bad-tempered..causing her to feel too stress.. not able to tell me the truth abt contacting her ex but i know its cos she really wants to protect me as i am very sensitive. even though i told her before.. i will believe in her.. i will trust her on the bus on the way home..and so i really dun mind that she go out with her friends cos i understand she needs to have her own friends too.. when i finally think it over but still i am still too late.. sometimes i really wonder why am i not even entitled a last chance just to turn it all over.. i believe everyone needs that chance.. everyone makes mistakes.. but wats most important is that we embrace ourselves together and not let go.. i have nv loved a girl so hard and so deep before.. she is the only one.. she is the only one that really stand by me like i have stand by her. she is the best girlfriend i ever had.. and i really cherish all the memories all the precious memories we had together..naive that i can be wishing all of this was just another nightmare but guess not.. its a reality that i have to face.. what i am feeling now is stop all the empty talks already.. i wan to be the one to protect her, stand by her and chase her this time round..i wan to change.. not wan.. i MUST change and will change..no more sensitive.. no more possessive.. no more irritating and no more bad tempered.. i will grow up to be the man she love.. for i love her so much.. hoping one day we will be back together and stronger than before... missing her and loving her always..

Peanut and Butter...

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