Kiwi's Bloggy

2010-03-31T22:27:00.002+08:00

I really dun know what else to say to her anymore... all i want is to just help her.. i do not wan to see her alone.. i just wan to clear the misunderstanding between her and karen/jason only yet all i did now is hurt and hurt to the both of us... i am really so tired... i just wan to be friends with her and each live our life happily.. issit really so hard.. i really had it.. i wont interfere anymore.. hope that this way she would be happier.. i will remember the times and memories in my heart.

i wont regret anymore..i did not try to harm anyone.. though i do admit that i am not perfect or wat, i do blame her before but that was at the very beginning but NOT ANYMORE!!! why cant she just believe me!?! i have really tried my best.. even if ppl say i am stupid, softhearted, useless or wat.. i dun care anymore.. i will continue to live my life..

2010-03-31T02:00:00.002+08:00

Lots of things have been happening recently.. And I am really quite sad abt it..there seems to be some misunderstanding among our grp..and it's sad to see it becomes like this..I did not do anything at all.. I am also trying my very best to live happy and not doing anything to make the both of us as bad as unhappy as it is now anymore.. I seriously have no idea what is going on now too.. I dun know if she is misunderstanding me or what.. But i just dun feel good at all to see her like so upset.. Maybe it's just me for thinking too much but if it's really about me.. I do not wan to have any misunderstaning between us.. Just hope that if there is anything, we could have talk about it and clear the air.. I just dun want to see her alone too.. Knowing that she is happy and I am happy with my life it's enough le.. Though we may not be lovers anymore, also hope that we could still be close friends.. But I doubt it's gonna happen if there is anything on but not cleared..though no matter what I hope there will be a day whereby we can really talk to each other like friend again..

2010-02-12T10:58:00.003+08:00

Did not expect myself to blog again for this.. Our precious - AiAi ... Has left us this mroning... Saw her frozen there not moving at all totally broke my heart... Another of my precious has left me.. Still remember the times when we used to play and hold her in our arms.. Feeding her.. Though she is very naughty at times.. But we still love her.. The only thing that belongs to us is gone..unknowingly she has been with us for about two years 6 mths since the day I and you brought her.. For some reason whenever I think back..my tears starts to drop...

Thank you aiai for been with me and my family and jia an.. You will always be a part of
me.. I will always miss you aiai..

2010-01-12T11:43:00.002+08:00

This is my last post to you..

Felt that somehow we are drifting furthur and furthur away..How I wish none of this has ever happen but... I understand.. No one would
want either of this to happen too.. It's abit sad that we just end this way and now somehow we had quite abit of misunderstanding towards each other and end up quarrellibg hating and distancing from each other furthur... You said that talking to me it's like talking to a cow... I can understand why you are doing all this.. Hoping to keep the group together.. I know it's been hard on you.. Sorry... You may think that I am fake or childish or selfish or wat.. I did thought of trying.. But I really still need time.. I won't be happy this way.. I believe you would want me to make you unhappy or affect ur life anymore and I definitely do not want to make
you unhappy anymore too... Hope you will understand one day... No matter wat our situation now or you may hate me now but if you need someone to be there.. I will be... Just a call away... Be happy always jia an...

2010-01-10T02:02:00.002+08:00

Wonder why am I so troubled over it.. I really wonder... If only things that are happening now is on me... ... I feel so envy of them... So foolish of me... At least you are happy now... Will miss you....

2010-01-02T01:44:00.002+08:00

Just saw the news that the wishing sphere at the floating platform of esplanade will be recycled overseas soon.. Among the wishing sphere lies the wish we once make together.. Felt kinda sad to see it gone soon.. Since it once hold our promise and memories...

2009-12-30T01:02:00.003+08:00

Just came back from genting..been long time since i go genting though most of the stuffs are almost still the same.. Had fun there.. Love you daddy,mummy and both of my sister krys and sarah.. Hahah.. Still silly of me to have the thought if only she could be there with me..

Sometimes i can only blame myself for been so silly and foolish to see some stuffs.. Beats me.. Till now it still hurts.. But like i said.. I can only blame myself for been curious or silly.. After all that me and her has gone through together.. All the fun.. All the sadness.. All the joy.. And the things we did together .. Just realised i am so easily replaced.. Sad to say.. Ya.. My heart still hurts and misses her though i may seems happy or perhaps i am just trying to be happy.. There are even times i still pin some hope that she will still love me but i know it wont anymore.. Clearly from wat i saw.. They are happy now.. She is happy now which is the most important.. Just kinda brings back memories when we were still together.. To be true..as a guy.. My heart definitely is jealous.. But another part of me really do felt glad to know that she is happy.. perhaps our love story really ends here..
really miss her still... Hoping i can be there for her someday.. It is also time for me to close this blog....

2009-12-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

To the special someone...

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, You gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
But the very next day, You gave it away
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby do you recognise me?
Well it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me

(Happy Christmas!) I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I Love You" I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now I know you'd fool me again

2009-12-14T23:46:00.004+08:00

i am quite upset that we turn out this way.. I dun even know really happen.. But just hope to have a good talk with her tml.. Cos i really dun wan to see us been like this anymore.. I know its not good for the both of us and she wont be happy this way too... All i wan is for her to be happy still even though the guy beside her is not me anymore.. Believe it or not...

2009-12-13T17:44:00.001+08:00

拼命的奢望悶壞的胸口讓我想大聲的吶喊

我努力不放你冷淡你讓分手就這樣

我連做夢也感覺受傷

一年過了還是一天計算著慌張

計程車上的音響我們最愛的情歌

這一刻卻重重擊破思念的心臟

夜深了我怎麼辦寂寞了誰在身旁

心情變得好復雜想她念她恨她

一個人你害怕嗎細數過漫天星光

說好永遠不分開多假多假多假

讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔

心放空了寂寞好了

堅強外表下我脆弱情人節開始失常

別人慶祝我卻很失落

秋天過了冬天漫長

關於愛感傷

我們天真的勇敢我們追求的夢想

捨不得也只能收藏旅行的時光

夜深了我怎麼辦寂寞了誰在身旁

心情變得好復雜想她念她恨她

一個人你害怕嗎細數過漫天星光

說好永遠不分開多假多假多假

讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔

心放空了寂寞好了

寂寞感冒全都可以好的

愛多甜傷多痛都釋放 oh~

夜深了我怎麼辦寂寞了誰在身旁

心情變得好復雜想她念她恨她

一個人你害怕嗎細數過漫天星光

說好永遠不分開多假多假多假

讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔

沒有你心放空了寂寞好了

2009-12-13T06:03:00.002+08:00

just hate this feeling.. Why am i always one step late.. Saw a kuromi at the catch machine ytd so i decided to give it just one try with 1 buck only.. And i actually caught it.. Still remember that she likes it and wanted to pass it to her this wed but its abit too late i guess.. I really hate this.. Waited whole night for her reply but still turns out nothing.. Why issit that everything i do seems so wrong..i hate myself for been such a fool..

2009-12-12T14:31:00.002+08:00

had a wonderful xmas dinner with yat and gang..We actually ate till the restaurant closed..it was a short time together but its been really long since i meet up with them..All these just reminds me of some happy and sweet stuffs that i will never forget...everytime i eat something and look up and saw the couple that reminds me of.....us.. The theme is still the same - green.. The xmas exchange is still the same too.. Just that she is not here with me.. Misses those day whereby we had our exchange together with them at the BBQ place at clementi.. We got lots of green that look like leaves while one brown that looks like tree.. Hahaha... We were so happy back den.. If only we could relive the time together once more..

2009-12-09T00:10:00.002+08:00

just saw something that hurt my heart again...

all this while its been hurting though trying very hard to be strong...

my worse fear came still...

its over for me.. and her..

does she know that i still loves her alot?..

can see she is very happy with him instead... hurts alot though but...

i do not have any choice do i..?

i still loves her alot... wonder does she still loves me..

though i hope even now if she can tell me that she loves me i would be very very touched and happy...

but dun think its tat case anymore..since she said she dun love me anymore..

i wish she is happy always.. really...

2009-11-29T05:01:00.002+08:00

all i hope is to stay by her side and be with her when she feels sad and unhappy.. Why am i not even entitled this.. Is been with me really stress and sad... I just wan to love her and hope she will turn to me.. Its just as simple..there is still some stuffs i wanna do... I hope to watch new moon with her and celebrate her bday with her.. But i dunno whether got the chance or not since today's incident...

I really miss her so... But no matter how hard i wish that she will hug me or hold me, it seems so hard for me...

我是真心的爱你。。

2009-11-28T22:22:00.002+08:00

dun even know whether she still got see this or other post or not...

guess i am just not the one again....

am i really that bad? weak? such a bad bf?

i really dun know how she feel about me now...

does she even still love me or still wan me?

if she still love me... why cant she just love me...

i know i should not feel this way but... it really hurts when i am alone at night thinking of her...

but if she are happier now than with me... i can totally understand...

if so... no matter how hard it is... i am willing to let go and just to let her be happy...

really miss her so much....

really love her so much too....

I am really pinning for you so hard...

peanut... will you give me your love...?

2009-11-27T16:40:00.002+08:00

woke up with tears on my face...

dreamt the same sad dream again...

this is not a good day for me at all...

i am in great dilemma now...

wonders if even after what i do ... will things be different...?

its true that i am missing her every single day...

really longing to hold her.. to hug her in my arms...

come back to me...will you...

i am just a silly fool...

2009-11-27T02:44:00.002+08:00

i am physically exhausted but my mind...

cant seems to sleep...

my mind is all over her...

how i wish i was the one watching with her.. but i am not...

i felt sad.. not able to watch it with her...

i really wants to watch it.. but....

this is just part of the things we said to do together before...

why.. why... why do we have to love and miss each other till so miserable...

i have been wondering and hoping....

I just wish to have someone to love me... hold my hands as i hold hers...embracing each other tightly...

have never been in love so deeply before...

really wanna hold her hands and hope she will turn back to me and love me...

guess i am just been very silly knowing it wont happen to me as i wish....

really love her so much....peanut..

*爱我别走*

我到了这个时候还是一样
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
我不敢想的太多
因为我一个人
迎面而来的月光拉长身影
走在漫无目的的街
我没有你的消息
因为我在想你

爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔

我到了这个时候还是一样
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
我没有你的消息
因为我一个人
迎面而来的月光拉长身影
走在漫无目的的街
我没有你的消息
因为我在想你

爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔

2009-11-26T00:06:00.002+08:00

so it would seems to be...

why cant i get rid of this feeling of sadness...

i am really missing you now....

sometimes i still wonder how/what can i do just to have you look at me once more like before...

2009-11-22T23:28:00.002+08:00

Just saw the msg she sent me...

What am i supposed to do...

Its exactly how i felt too....

Got the very strong urge to hug her.. but i cant...

If only she could give me her love now...

but i know i cant really do much...

there is really so much so much of our feelings for each other that i cant really bare to give up...

why cant we just be true to our feelings and love each other....

i hate this kind of feelings apart...

I still miss you peanut....do you understand how i feel...

2009-11-21T12:12:00.002+08:00

my heart hurts so much.... the ache is really unbearable.....

maybe i am just not good enough...

i really dunno what am i gonna do when i miss you....

all i hope that is you will turn back to me.... and love me...

guess this year Christmas will never be the same anymore....

i really cant bear to give you up....

with so many laughters, tears, funs and stuffs... do you really bear to give it up...

just want hold on tight to the one you love before all is lost, i really dun want to lose you.. this is the thing that i do not wan to regret...

i really dunno whats the outcome anymore...whether will we still be together or do you really still wan me...

in my heart you have already played a major role in my life...

love you peanut...

2009-11-20T00:32:00.001+08:00

I really dun mean to...

sorry..

2009-11-19T18:52:00.002+08:00

saw a story....

______________________________________________________________________

The guy and gal is so happy together.. they love each other so deeply...

the guy no matter no happened, willing to stand by her.. be it laugh together, cry together, angry together and sad together... all he hope is to see her smile and happy..

but now that guy got left behind alone.. late at night.. miss her yet cant call her.. kept looking at the phone hoping she will call him.. but nope... he waited and waited... all he can do is... keep all the feelings to himself and cry to sleep...

he has really done his best... and he know.. no matter how hard he try or want... she wont come back to him anymore...
_____________________________________________________________________

wonder wats the ending gonna be like....

I really have no idea...

all i know now is I am really not happy anymore....

2009-11-18T20:59:00.002+08:00

Its the 11th day of our break up...

I do not have the courage to stay near her anymore...

Called her last night when i was quite drunk and wanna tell her the words that have been stored in my heart but did not have the chance to do so....

Guess i do not have the chance to tell her in the face anymore..

It still hurts so much up till now...

My heart is so hollow... so lonely...

I dreamt of her last night.. and i cried in my dream asking her not to go....

I really dun know what to do and how shd i move on from now on....

Butter had already given his best....

Hope peanut will be happy....

2009-11-13T15:33:00.002+08:00

We broke up....

I just hope that we could have cherish the second chance and love each other more...

How i wish she could here with me...

Just a simple and little action/love for me is enough to make my day....

My heart hurts so much....

I have no idea.. how i live by day by day...

The days without her... miss her so...

Now i am alone....

Wonders if she still miss me or even still love me....

Just hope that fate will be there again...

Wish that she will be happy...

I just miss you so....Anz...

2009-10-25T13:54:00.002+08:00

Its our exam period right now... i know i should be studying hard right now.. but there is alot of things on my mind right now.. i am feeling very sad right now.. there is alot of things i wanna say to her deep in my heart or just by expressing my feeling to her will do.. but i cant do that at all... she will just find me "nag" "fan" "irritating"... i understand she is having enough stress coping with her studies already... thats why i really dun want and cant bother her anymore since i want her to get good results too though i cant really do much to help her in her studies.. the only thing i can do is just by not bothering her and giving her moral support... I cant find anyone to turn to or even talk to when i really need someone to be here for me or just a listening ear will do.. but there is no one.. that why i can only hope that i will feel better by blogging hopefully...

My feelings....

2009-08-29T16:05:00.000+08:00

Its been really really long time since i last blog.. i can only keep all my feelings here.. cos at least i know there wont be anyone able to see since its been so long..

dear and me have broken up.. and it really hurts so much like a sharp knife pierce through my heart.. it all happen too fast and caught me totally off-guard.. that i totally broke down and lost all my emotions.. no appetite.. no mood..cant sleep at all.. tried to stop thinking but brain wont stop.. keeps thinking and even dream abt her and cry in the night... for 2 year 2 months.. i tot we will be able to last even longer than that.. i was wrong.. totally wrong.. its all my fault.. its been wrong since the day i become too over-sensitive, irritating, possessive and too bad-tempered..causing her to feel too stress.. not able to tell me the truth abt contacting her ex but i know its cos she really wants to protect me as i am very sensitive. even though i told her before.. i will believe in her.. i will trust her on the bus on the way home..and so i really dun mind that she go out with her friends cos i understand she needs to have her own friends too.. when i finally think it over but still i am still too late.. sometimes i really wonder why am i not even entitled a last chance just to turn it all over.. i believe everyone needs that chance.. everyone makes mistakes.. but wats most important is that we embrace ourselves together and not let go.. i have nv loved a girl so hard and so deep before.. she is the only one.. she is the only one that really stand by me like i have stand by her. she is the best girlfriend i ever had.. and i really cherish all the memories all the precious memories we had together..naive that i can be wishing all of this was just another nightmare but guess not.. its a reality that i have to face.. what i am feeling now is stop all the empty talks already.. i wan to be the one to protect her, stand by her and chase her this time round..i wan to change.. not wan.. i MUST change and will change..no more sensitive.. no more possessive.. no more irritating and no more bad tempered.. i will grow up to be the man she love.. for i love her so much.. hoping one day we will be back together and stronger than before... missing her and loving her always..

Peanut and Butter...

2008-10-10T01:03:00.000+08:00

Hey hey hey.. sorry man.. I have been getting REAL lazy to blog almost to the extend of forgetting that i had a blog.. lol.. Just a Notice to make.. Erhem.. This post is gonna go through a makeover soon.. hehehe.. things have change, so do my blog have to change tooo..!!

With so many events have passed... first ADM, NDP, NDR, F1 and many more other events that i have participated in.. can say its a great pleasure to be involved in these events.. guess wat... Today is the 1 year anniversary NS life.. still remember the first in HTA.. we are all strangers but in a short period of time, we all became so close till almost like buddies and brothers during camp.. suffer together and had fun together.. I will always remember those days bros..! may all the best to you guys!! 10 MORE MONTHS TO ORD..!!!

As for my relationship leh... can i say that we are stilll honeymooning though after 1 year still strong and ongoing? I cant say that we dun have times when we cant get along lar.. but still we hang on tight to each other to the end.. I really enjoys the times we are together to the extend that i wanna holg your hand tight and dun wanna let go at all..lastly, I wanna declare that I LOVE YOU BABY..! let us continue to hold on tight to each other and not letting go ! =D

2008-08-24T20:52:00.000+08:00

Helllloooo....? Anybody theree...? Lol... just wondering if anybody still alive over here..? Well.. at least i know for sure my dear is alive~. She is my #1 fan.. Hee.. Hmmm... well.. lets recap over what i have done over the past few months..

Yup.. as usual.. i am busy with my NS life.. Ops at night is one the thrills that really keeps me motivated through my NS life.. still remember when i was young, all those Police And Thief action films and shows.. Now i finally got the taste of it.. with all those running and chasing in the streets..can i say that i have accomplish one of my dreams? Next is my participation is NDP... well.. all NSmen have to go thru this or can i say MOST.. For me, I am glad that i did participate in it cuz i still can to see the fireworks from a good view and at the same time, seeing the ppl pouring in a mob by evening kinda reminded me of my past experiences at NDP every year.. kinda funny seeing them is like reflecting on my own. Lastly, NDR(National Day Rally) @ NUS, though this time i did nt get to see our PM or MM, but i still get to eat alot of good foods..especially the Brownies~~ Woo HOoo... damn crispy and sweet..! too bad i only get to eat 1.. cus other ppl also have the same thoughts as i do.. therefore can see singaporean spirit.. Kiasu.. lol..

As for me and dear.. can i say that we are still the same loving and funny but still likes to bicker at times? LOL.. well.. its part and parcel of our life.. right now.. i am aiming to buy a new phone cus contract ending soon... yesshhh! Shd i get Samsung Omnia or the new upcoming C905 from SE or Any new and nice phones to intro?? haha..

Time really flies fast.. its gonna be Christmas soon.. meaning the next month i am close to 1 yr of my NS LIFE!! Omg.!! thats fast lar... and think abt it..counting down.. I only left 11 months to ORD!! cant wait to start earning money man! oh ya.. i am still thinking of Signing up for degree course in SIM - RMIT or UOL.. Probably next month the enrolment le.. soo any suggestions..?? heee.. well.. i got no choice ma.. my points for Polys are good but not good enough to get into a Local Uni.. so have to go thru this route..? Aiya.. no matter wat route i take.. i know dear still will support me de hor!! Its nt a will or will not support.. its a MUST to suppport me.. Hahahahah =P

2008-07-26T13:35:00.000+08:00

Why is everybody treating me this way. sometimes i cant take it anymore.! I feel so pressured and hard to breath at times. but wats most importantly is I hate the three words "leave me alone" this words hurts my feeling so much! i just dun understand wat are they thinking! i dun see where did i go wrong till i need to be treated like tat! damn fucking pissed n sad! wat a screw up day. wonder wats in for me later on? issit gd or bad for rest of the day does nt depend on me. so sianz of been treated like tis

2008-07-03T13:12:00.000+08:00

Feeling Quite down now.. Feel so much like voiceing out yet no one is there..
Its not the same anymore.

2008-06-28T00:28:00.000+08:00

Yup.... here i go again... have been a lonely week for me.. dear nt ard... sob sob... so miss her... everyday seems like years to me... aWwwww..... cant tahan any longer le... this week's workload for me is really tedious.. with so many tasks ongoing and paper work to be done.. even kanna the most suay stuffs.. packing the bloody dirty store... that store is left there for some time already.. imagine the dust collated... its so...... horrible...my whole hand really turn black and dirty.. my whole clothes also full of dust.. its the worse day of my life.. hand full of cuts too.. the stuffs is soo goddamn heavy.. i really felt dammn sad lar.. so long for dear's hug on Thursday.. anyway.. since its over le.. forget it ba... this is something i learn during my NS term... guess NS really does make someone grow in terms of physical and mental.

tml going for the tofu comic at Suntec.. bet its gonna be crowded.. but my choices.. for my baby mah.. dun worry dear.. tml's battle... i will win the tofu back for you!!

2008-06-14T00:18:00.001+08:00

yes.. i am still awake now... cant reallyy get to sleep since quite energetic ... dunnoo since when i starts to have this kind of thinking... its like time seems to be passing fast... hour by hour, day by day.. yet when it comes to month.. its like crawlling........ so long tilll Ord.... awwww... makes it sooo sianz.. btw.. this week has been a real tormenting week too.. i really miss baby so much... so long for her hug... i wanna meetttt my dearie more often man.. =[

PS: I miss you dear.. bet ya miss me lots too.. ahha..

2008-05-09T00:26:00.000+08:00

Yes..i know its been a really long time since i last blog... just to update a bit.. i am feeling quite sad and down...with no one to turn to...my heart have the crushing pain whenever i think abt tat problem... i felt so transparent... i understand tat now is not the best time.. but is human really able to cast problem aside without facing it?

i believe tat if both party are true, willingly and with communications,problem can be solved...

2008-03-04T22:11:00.000+08:00

woooo..! looks like Singapore is been rock by the news of JI's escaping from detention centre... power right..! there is really a lot of questions to this case... its really worth wondering.. lol... as for us, we are just still so busy yet with this, makes our life even more miserable.. ><... i really wonder if this guy really did ran away due to human mistake or other reasons? hmmmmm.. we wont know it man.. guess i really need to get ready for anything nowadays man.. had a bad day to start with, hoping tml would be a good one... yawnz.. gotta sleep else late again.. Miss my dear a lot..

2008-02-14T23:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!

The day where all lovers celebrate together... I was working in the morning but luckily i had some spare time in the evening to celebrate with dear.. though its nothing grand or wat.. but we just had a simple meal at my house and with my "little" surprise~ ehehe... when dear went to toilet, i surprise her with a small cake of valentine after she came into the room.. i could see tears in her eyes.. hahha.. guess she pretty touched.. and thats wat its enough for me.. also with a small pearl thats been taken from the "sea" out from its shell personally.. hehe.. maybe you guys wont understand but its just some us two to know.. hehehehe.. =P once again... this sat ah... love you lots dear!

2008-02-10T23:53:00.000+08:00

yeah!! dear is back!! miss her so much man.. >.<... today we went to lisha's mum house to eat steamboat.. so nice the house decorations and also atmosphere.. especially the painting tts hanged on the wall..soooo artistic... the steamboat was a nice one.. found my sugar mummy too! LOL.. j/k~ after the dinner, we had a "small" gambling session.. oops.. nahz.. its okay cos of new year man.. police also people ma.. lol!! hehe.. this time around i did won quite a some of money~ wee!! so happpy!! dear kinda lost though.. maybe got kiap by me and lisha, the two lucky ppl.. keep getting "ban luk" and "ban ban".. EHehhee..

we left the house at around 2 plus cos got two love birds wanna go shopping ma..! lol.. so we left them to go lovey-dovey..! whahahhaha.. me and dear went to PS to get our movie "ah long".. the show is super funny man.. cant help but laugh out loud man.. really enjoy the day with dear tooo.. dear sooo "sha nai"... awwww... =P but i like~~~ ehehhehe... k lar.. gotta go sleep le! starts work tml le..~

Chinese New Year Eve

2008-02-05T23:23:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year Eve...!! its time for project hong bao again! hoping that this year i would be able to get more.. pocket is kinda tied..lol.. soo wat have i been doing the last few weeks? hmmmm.. i have just finished my 1 week of course and also 2 days of first aid course and today is my last day.. meaning that tml i have to report back to 'd' division again to get my second posting..felt very sianz.. cos after today, i cant talk or even see any of my friends in my division anymore.. all are separated everywheree.. each busy with their own stuffs.. i had learnt CPR today.. was quite fun and worth learning.. anyone need CPR??! lol.. i can help!!! ehhehe...
dear dear went to malaysia to visit her grandparents le.. sobsob.. this few days cant see her.. gonna miss her voice.. her eyes.. her "sai nai"... basically everything.. i really miss her so... and this feeling of mine is only gonna get worse as days passes... faster come back ... =[

POP

2008-01-22T22:41:00.000+08:00

woohoo... time really passes fast eh..? 3 months and its now over... 3 months of training and bonding.. good times and bad times.. fun times and serious times.. all of this passes in just a blink of eyes... *ProoF*

ahhaha.. and YES... POP is over too.. I got my CPL rank.. I am CPL Kelvin.. so happy..!! so many tests and obstacles tat i went through to get my rank!! ^^ The POP parade was consider quite good cos the weather on that side was on our side.. a cooling and windy day! at the end of the parade, we still shouted POPO!! and also 4 3 2 1.... FIT SQUAD FIT SQUAD..!! haha.. all funs and hardships have come to an end.. like what sir said, " This Is Only The Beginning Of Our Journey! " . we took alot of photos together till we lost counts..took pics with my family and also dear but nt to exclude my bro too.! thanks ppL! had dinner at our area.. mum's treat.. wooohooo.. finally can eat PORK PORK PORK!! *I nw pronounced myself pig killer..* no more chicken for me!! >.< 3 months of chicken is really turning me into a chicken! lol

we also got our posting on monday... its kinda sad cos.. everybody is going different ways.. so many ppl went to PIC and PCG.. i gt posted to clementi division.. sianz.. i expect life is gonna be boring from there onwards.. i am quite unhappy with my posting.. sianz.. but nvm lar.. just do my best can le.. Kin got into PCG FI sia.. congrats... yat got into G' division.. ^^ lets all work hard to next year ORD LOR!!

went to school with dear today.. haha..same thing boring but teasing dear was fun and she got jealous over an incident today... heheh.. *secret* went home after school, we had a quarrell but after that okay le..Oh ya! i just remember somethinng interesting.. hheee.. dear will kill me i guess.. lol.. dear.. dun eat too much garlic lar.. my house de air-freshner running out.. LOL! j/k.. heee...

tml i am goona go JB with my campmates liao.. this is most likely the last few times we could meet liao since everybody will be busy with their work next week.. take care ppl! miss you dear!! muacks..

2008-01-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

I felt so sad right now.. I really dun know wat else can i do le..

2008-01-01T14:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Its finally 2008..!! man... time really passed so fast.. so much time have passed since i went into NS... and it almost time for me to POP LOR!!! ahha... i am very happy cos i got very good score for my law exam, second in class.. first time for me !! Heee.. >.< i also passed my shooting with first class marksmen!! WeEE!! another $100 for me.. + IPPT silver! =P the rest of the tests have also been cleared.. wats left is only POP Parade and Party time.! whahwahwa... which also means separation of NS49 soon.. but i believe we will always remember the days of hardships and times together right?! ^^
ytd dear and i went to vivo to party..but before that we also went to orchard for shopping too.. the weather at the roof garden is cooling and windy with great musics from the countdown concert.. saw very very nice fireworks together.. will always remember it in my heart.. thanks for the day too dear..!!

almost time for me to "book" in lor.. i will blog and upload more the next time.. including pics of me botak!! lol.. MISS YOU DEAR!

Happy Birthday.

2007-12-02T01:24:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to MY DEAR!! hehee.. 20th birthday leh!! big gal now.. hahaha.. i know i already sang birthday song to you but still i wanna sing to you again.. no harm hearing more right? just like receiving more prezzie right? or "100" hor?? whahaha.. ahem... here it goes.. Happy Birthday to you.. happy birthday to you.. happy birthday to my dear.. Happy Birthday to you....!!! another joke birthday song for u.. happy birthday to you.. you are born in the zoo.. with the monkeys and piggys.. happy and good luck to you.. heheh =P sorry for the lameness i know =/

today i went out with my baby early at 12noon.. wooo.. its like so long since 1 and a half months ago i went into HTA.. lol.. time can say pass fast yet slow at times..we went to far east plaza to look for her pants and ate ramem.. i ate scallop ramem while dear ate spicy ramem with fish i guess. =X thereafter, we bought 2 tofu badges at the usual place.. i think the salesperson already recognise us liao..can apply membership le man.. LONG TERM TOFU FAN MEMBERSHIP.. sounds good eh.. ahha..we continued to scout through wisma to find some good clothes for my baby but it seems mostly winter wear now.. hardly any nice clothes.. anyway the decorations at town are beautiful...we head to bugis to shop for her pants and finally found it.. we went quite alot of places today.. quite tired but still very enjoyable.. with we two the retarteds, anything can happened.. lol.. next, we went to suntec and wanted to go for the IT fair but got the wrong location info.. haha.. blur dear.. so funny.. =P and so we went to marina square and finally managed to get a top for dear else my baby sure sian1/2.. LOL.. we got so tired and we slack at Gloria cafe before proceeding to esplanade to chill down, blow wind and talk talk.. really felt so relaxed.. its like almost the kind of feeling wheereby i have nt got into NS yet the kind of feeelings.. so relax.. so "ENG ENG CHIAN CHIAN" means so free in English i think.. hee.. we were quite full at first due to the coffee i think den got very hungry wen we are on the way home so we ate at cck mac else we sure gastric de man..

2007-11-22T22:41:00.000+08:00

Today.I had my medical review. The result were not good.Really very depressing for me.But i know i am no longer the weakling Who cant take hardships.I have and still trying to be stronger than before. Though deep in my heart still kinda hurt but i will accept this fact.I believe humans will only improve and get more mature as times come.i dun deny that i still have a long way to go but i wont give up. Someone has been there to encourage me all this while and thats you my dear.Hao Xi huan ni wo de bao bei.

2007-11-11T18:08:00.000+08:00

its sunday liao.. so fast... its seems that holidays always tends to pass very fast.. really missed those carefree days.. those days for studying with dear... popping up at her house and all the funs.. yes.. i am still in emo state... Ippt this week again.. seems so low confident and very irritated.. fuck with the stupid plan of ippt very week.. no time to enjoy liao yet still come up with this kind of stupid plan... ARGHhH.... cant take it liao man...! >< i really miss her alot....

2007-11-10T21:15:00.000+08:00

its been some times since i last post.. but this time... not abt hw i have been.. just that i am really sad and depressed right now.. my world has collapsed.. really feel like just dieing just now and even now.. am i really that sort of person she thinks.. sorry...

BAcK!!

2007-10-14T00:12:00.000+08:00

yup guys. i am back le.. and... botak now... lol.. well.. life in HTA is quite hard for me.. still nt used to the tough life yet.. met alot of different ppl inside and also realised so many ppl are actually linked. FIT squad? nahz.. we are just still the same as pre-course squad.. there is nth to be proud or boost abt.. still the same mah.. the past few days really missed my baby alot.. when i finally saw her.. felt sooo happy.. but too bad cant hug i feel so uneasy all the way till i reached home. dun be sad anymore.. baby.. k?

anyway, its a celebration for mao/cat's birthday at orchard's sakura buffet.. food is nt bad.. but abit stomachache.. hee still love the foods there.. maybe cos food at HTA totally nt good..tts why.. lol.. will blog again.. bYEEe

last day!!

2007-10-09T00:36:00.000+08:00

Its the last day which also means eve of me enlisting into NS Police..haha.. so nervous.. gotta report 8.30am Sharp at HTA (old choa chu kang road) near lim chu kang sia..LOL.. i dunno why leh.. my feelings is so mixed up.. all of my friends went into NS liao.. some even ORD le.. yet nw is my turn.. heard so many stories from them.. but nw its finally my turn to personally experience it.. heee..

today, time seems to be in a rush man.. early afternoon went to TBP to eat lunch and eat some food for cooking and also photocopying... after that we went back home to slack a while.. meantime see krys packed her clothes... lol.. so many... 0.o hahaha... next, we went to opposite to buy some things ordered by mum and i went to purchase another batt while dear repair her phone.. lol.. waited quite long at the shop..

after finishing our repairs and stuffs, we head out to the photocopy shop to laminate my cert. Nb... the moment i went inside to have my lamination done, the shop's electric tripped.. so suay man... Arghz... bo pian lor.. we went to another shop..

by the time we reached home, it starts to rain liao.. so heavy somemore ... when we were abt to cook.. we realised we ran out of alummin foil... damn.. well.. someone has to go and buy mah...so me go buy lor.. when i came back.. whole body wet even though i carry umbrella.. -____-

after cooking or rather experimenting our "JIN ZHEN GU", i had to remove something VERY er xin ... only my sis and dear knows nahz.. LOL.... =P on the way home at mrt, the mrt almost stopped sia.. tot my suayness caused it again.. damn sianz.. Zzzz.. LOL pray everything will be better tml...

k lar.. gotta to sleep le... Wish me lucks guys.. i will miss my family AND Dear de and also friends.. Take care! seeya this weekend.. hahaha..
*PS* Dear muz miss me everytime HOR..><

2 days

2007-10-07T11:51:00.000+08:00

2 Days left..

Well its really so little time left yet so many things left undone yet.. how man..? anyway.. today we just felt so Nuan... totally dunno where to go also.. lol.. everywhere also so many ppl.. zZzz...at first decided nt to meeet up de but still meet up cos i just really dun wanna miss any time together even though she felt kinda sianz.. i just really wanna cherish the time i had nw for her only..

we went to bugis to pray and get an "fu" from the temple before going to bugis to walk awhile and decided to go to central C again to buy titbits for me to bring inside lor.. LOL.. brought a few nice japan biscuits.. sweeett.! ^^

after shoppping for biscuits, we really dunnno wat to do/go le.. so i suggeested going home lor.. we went back to cck by 190... by the time we reach cck already 6pm like that le.. we went to ajisan to hav dinner and rot abit at the library a while but tio KP by the security.. NB.. he damn irritating lar.. keeep pester us.. fuck up man.. the second time he KP us, i really felt like "gan" him back man but luckily my dear bring me go out le else i sure more piss de...received a call from nest.. so happy man.. thanks bro!

Hahah.. a funny photo

Another photo of me

Baby and me

My Favourite Dog

3 days

2007-10-06T11:39:00.000+08:00

3 Days

Well.. yup basically i am starting to count down.. lol.. today we went to queensway in the afternoon to scout for things needed for my NS days.. i brought a FBT shorts which cost 10 bucks only.. kinda sexy... -__- i know... i also brought a snow cap to get ready for my botak! the moment i wear it.. i look cute or maybe kinda gay? lol... i still need a normal cap.. anyone sponser me? >.<

our next destination is to chinatown.. the place where my childhood resides... we went to "Jin Long" to shop for some accessories.. cos baby wanna make her own earrings.. hee.. well..we went to 3 shops that sells accessories needed to make necklaces or earrings and spent 30 mins each.. hahaa.. as for me.. though i am nt really into this stuffs but i still enjoy teasing her and looking at these pretty beads, etc... i saw the 4D store at people's park complex filled with Soo many people man.. so scary.. one of the longest ques i ever seen.. luckily for me.. i used nets so got priority.. whahhaha.. after shopping for the beads,chains etc.. we went to shop for my undies, singlets and daily necessity... woo..! i spent 100 plus overall man... its killing me..!! nooo! i am so broke nw.. i still have my bills nt yet settle and also extra batt. nt yet buy.... jialat liao lar... somemore nw only beginning of the month.. =[... plz lar plz lar.. money plz drop from above.. LOL..

dear and me got so tired from all those walking and decided to rest a while at MAC before heading out to The Central C. its my first time visiting that place.. its kinda big but still quite a lot of stores nt ready yet but true lar as compare to few months ago its got better a lot le.. anyway since its still quite new to me.. so i am just like a curious hamster lar.. wanted to explore the whole shopping centre..hehe.. we saw the mini donut at basement..! so cute..! 12 for $4.. but when you actually combined them maybe become the size of two normal donuts only so its kinda ex. lar.. however.. i just cant resist my temptation lor.. we bought anotheer kind.. 6 cheese and 6 red bean.. so-so lar.. the red bean is nice but the cheese is a turn off to me.. nahz.. totally dun like it.. its like too plain like that... we met up with jun to have our dinner at the food court.. me and jun ordered jap. food.. NB.. the unagi don is like SO STINGY lar.. so little rice only.. i eat finished liao yet only 1/2 full nia lor.. $5.50 somemore leh.. we pei jun walk ard central awhile cos he also just like me lar.. first time.. lol.. "Sua Gu"..

after dear went home, me and jun continued to go to mustafa.. cos i need to buy goggles.. omg.. we got stuck at serangoon for almost an hr or so lor cos of heavy traffic somemore the people there cross the street like their grandfather's road lar.. they are nt scare of cars at all lor.. we see liao damn dulan man.. if we in america, sure run them down lor.. LOL.. evil me.. ahhaha...

2007-10-05T23:42:00.000+08:00

4 Days...

its the last few days i have left.. so much feelings.. so much thoughts.. issit really all for nothing...maybe it is.. but hw do i not think abt my gal.. really felt so heartbreaking.. realised its foolish of me.. a question thats been bothering me sometimes.. am i so irritating/naggy.. i also know my own weakness.. tts why i really hate myself so much at times and even feel so inferior.. just hope to have someone to understand thats all.. sorry to blog like this.. i really dun know hw to express my sadness only.. haha... i just have a strong desire to change nw.. be it whether i am still me or nt.. i also cant stand myself anymore..

6 Days..

2007-10-03T15:13:00.000+08:00

Why am i so suay.. feeling so sickly.. yet still kanna scold by dad... totally no mood man.. fuck..

8 Days...

2007-10-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

Its seems so much like my fault now.. i really feels so in pain now.. my stomach keeps having a sharp pain now.. my heart also... i dunno hw to say.. but its really so FAN...machiam fighting ownself like that lar.. its like i dun have much time left liao yet this kind of things happens nw.. making it spoilts the whole thing.. i really felt so guilty and hate myself.. ARGHZ...!!!

9 Days...

2007-10-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

wow.. finally.. a good rest after my last day of work.. total sales for that day was super good.. kinda missed the place and ppl liao after all i have been working there for 2 years plus le.. so many memories over there.. times when i am so happy and times when i am so angry or even sad and even funny occasions..the pace of my life is really moving on faster and faster..

today i totally overslept after two days of consecutive working at 7am in the morning which means waking up at 6am.. its like totally so tired man...dear drop over at my house to give me a surprise..so scary..tot i saw a monster! LOL.. j/k =P

we went to east coast park to chill out and enjoy after i managed to "psycho" her? LOL.. yes.. maybe ba.. I finally got her to attempt roller-blading..! *Wink* well.. can feel that she's very scare lar.. since i can feel from her hand..cold sweat.. haha.. but i seriously wanted to play mah.. so i tried to teach her and guide her lor.. though the roller blade was heavy for her and stopped playing after a while but still she managed to give it a try again after playing cards with me and i LOST...yaya.. whoever lost is a turtle.. and i end up been a turtle.. wth.. rofl..Thanks dear..!

after two hrs of playing of cos gets tired lar.. and means wat..? it comes to our favourite part.. FOOD..!! lose energy liao hw can dun eat.!? so we went to HK cafe called "SHI NAI?" or something like tat.. ehhee.. WOOT! the food is nice and SOOOO MANYYY!! see until eyes also blurr.. felt so much like ordering everything abit..! haha.. too bad i nt rich kid.. awww.. =/ i ordered char siew noodle which kinda makes me regret.. why? nt cos the food nt nice but i ordered something thats so common again..!! its like WAN TON MEE?!?! LOL.. sotong me.. well at least i am nt the only one.. WHAHHAHAH.... will try this cafe again but this time sure MUZ eat HK food nt food tat can be so common..

I had a fun day today... though journey back from ECP was soooo long and tiring.. but the MOST kick that i get is... MY LONG LONG STAIRCASE... thats wheere it kills me... hahaa.. gotta sleep liao.! nite nite..!

OUR TOTAL DAMAGE AT SAKAE SUSHI - 20 plates.. on 7/9/2007

The Sunset that i took at Lisha's Chalet at Changi

The Ferry Wheel From A Close Shot

Just a photo of me before botak.. hahaha.

The Sunrise that i took from bus on the last day of work

A Photo Of Us At Pacific Cafe At Vivo City

WooT!

2007-09-29T07:52:00.000+08:00

its been a few days since i last post up new updates.. nahz.. actually also nth much to update abt.. my life for nw is still revloving ard my work..my gal..my friends..my family.. and also anime.. lol... today is the second last day of my work at Sri Maju.. here i am in the office posting up.. started up quite early abt 7am.. Wooo.. 6am gotta wake up and get ready liao.. so long nv wake up so early liao.. but dun worry.. guess i will have lots of chances to do so in the rear future.. whahahah... there is a saying that is quite true to me at least.. there are three brothers named.. Loss..Regret and Cherish.. the strange thing abt them is that they dun appear at the same time..they only come one after another..i kinda understand this meaning hope all of my friends also understand this.. =D

lastly... i wanna thanks some of my friends for making the effort to organise dinner or meet ups before i go into army.. so touched.. cos i kinda felt tt most of my friends are either in the army liao or busy with work so no time to do so den i also dun wanna think so much.. but still its a surprise to me.. ^^ and also thanks dear for accompanying me this few days.. next week last week le.. lets enjoy our next few days..!! WEeE!! hope u like the prezzie i gave u alot..

Happy BIRTHDAY MUM!!

2007-09-19T15:40:00.000+08:00

for some reasons, time passes real fast recently.. its like so fast till i cant really recall how many i have left.. my life have been up and down fast like sinc wave lor.. to me nw felt kinda sad cos most of my friends went into NS le.. and going into NS means MIA... its like disappearing from the world like that yet its still revolving everyday.. and its like everyday i am counting down.. 20 days left.. to do watever things my heart desire... will i fulfill it before going into NS..? so sianz lar.. will my life have big changes after going into NS...?will i become my fit? or will i become more mature..? will my friends and love ones miss me..? these are the questions i often ask myself..20 days left...dunno why kinda dun realli like wed.. LOL.. =p anyway forget it.. i already sorted it out on wat to do le with some help.. thanks! CHEERS KELVIN!! whahhahwha.. OH YA! Today is my beloved mum's birthday..! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOTHER!!! HUGS.. thanks you for bringing me to this world,letting me see and experience so many things.. meeting so many friends and given the chance to fill myself with love story on my journey of glowing up..and MOST important.. thanks for enduring my temper and weakness.. LOL.. you will be my best mum forever.. realised i am no good.. nth to say. guess i got my answer.. so sad now..nightz..

2007-09-18T00:19:00.000+08:00

why am i so suay recently..? i really dun understand.. stress at work just keeps on increaasing till its suffocating me.. damn.. still got two weeks left..have to endure no maatter wat.. nothing much to says.. just felt kinda upset recently.. tired... gonna go sleep.. hope tml is better..

@&#^@&^#

2007-09-16T22:20:00.000+08:00

Arghz... another spoilt rotten day again.. my day at work was nt good at all.. keep bumping into many cases of going genting today especially when i am soooo sleepy.. ahahha.. suay lar.. but nvm i dun really mind.. but the worst thing that totally makes my day is... a fuckup customer.. nb.. she is supposed to take the 3pm bus to KL.. so maybe someone makes mistake and nv tick down that she already checked in and so i called to ask her nicely that whether she reached already.. but damn her lar.. she attitude me and kp me.. saying wat i stupid issit.. she checked in liao still ask ask ask.. NBCB.. i ask properly right..? no need to give such a kind of comment wat! stupid typical auntie..
24 days left.. i really hope to come soon yet dun feel like so.. really dunno hw leh.. feeling so dilema...the thing i am afraid of is coming..? i pray nt.. KAMBATE KELVIN!!! a few more days of working and playing.. and also envy seeing all my friends inside camp liao.. some even POP or ORD le.. haIz...

+wad a day+

2007-09-15T09:14:00.000+08:00

its been a tiring and dusty day for me.. cus...I AM CLEANING MY ROOM... -__- gosh.. shall not say much further abt it since someone already said so liao HOR.... =P but still i appreaciate it.. ^^

so many ppl went in liao.. so little time left for me.. i think i will really miss everyone here.. right now i am still slogging my guts out to work some money to keep us alive..? LOL.. today woke up a bit late.. was kinda overslept cos did not heard the alarm at all.. guess i am too tired.. dunno why.. when i woke up.. kinda felt something missing in my life and still tot i was in my dream like that.. poor me.. =[ still sleeping.. lol.. i even went to the extent of pinching myself.. i was so afraid of somethin....

kambate!!!

2007-09-10T23:58:00.000+08:00

Brrrr... its a Cold cold morning.. felt so lazy till dun even wanna go work.. haha.. kelvin is a lazy bum.. =P realised that i have been spending my money fast.. -__- earn how much spend how much.. DOTS... but i just lost the motivation to work for now leh.. crap lar.. >.<>

The On-Coming Shows That I Wanna Watch...

There are also some adidas shoes that i saw upon..which one should i choosee? help me Vote!!=X

The Top 3 Sport Cars That I Like

Subaru WRX STI

Mitsubishi Evolution 11

Honda S2000

The Top 3 Expensive Stylish Sport Cars

Lamborghini Gallardo

Maserati Spyder

Ferrari F430 Spider

Some lame jokes that i found from friends..

knock knock

who's there?

knock knock

who's there

i told u my name is knock knock

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A woman was walking down the street when she was accosted by a particularly dirty and shabby-looking homeless woman who asked her for a couple of dollars for dinner. The woman took out her bill fold, extracted ten dollars and asked, "If I give you this money, will you buy some wine with it instead of dinner?" "No," I had to stop drinking years ago, the homeless woman replied."Will you use it to go shopping instead of buying food?" the woman asked"No I don't waste time shopping," the homeless woman said. "I need to spend all my time trying to stay alive.""Will you spend this on a beauty salon instead of food?" the woman asked."Are you NUTS!" replied the homeless woman. "I haven't had my hair done in 20 years!" "Well," said the woman, "I'm not going to give you the money. "Instead, I'm going to take you out for dinner with my hubby and myself tonight." The homeless Woman was astounded."Won't your hubby be furious with you for doing that? I know I'm dirty, and I probably smell pretty disgusting."The woman replied, "That's okay. It's important for him to see what a woman looks like after she has given up shopping, hair appointments, and wine."

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Q: What did Mark do when he missed Bus number 6?

A: He took Bus number 3 twice!!!
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Okay.. i think thats enough of the blogging le... my com now totally like tio cancer le.. dieing off soonn.. left with like only a few months of lifespans?? lol.. was quite happy recently.. so sweet on the 7th. tml is chuan yi and wilkin's turn to go in army liao.. GOOD LUCK to the both of them.. my turn is coming real soon too... today's toto nv tio... so sad.. 5.5m prooff.. gone..... =[

2007-09-09T08:58:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY

just another recent update on my personal life.. life just feels not bad with things staying the way it was.. nth much to say either..

2007-09-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

hmmmm.. wat shd i say today..? well basically.. its my resting day..? lol.. yup.. after so many days of going out.. really dunno wat to do or where to go liao.. so the best place is to stay at homme!! ^^ since staying at home den nothing special also lar.. except mood for today super good lar!! hor!!.. =P so touched.. lol.. sweet sweet dreams.. sick liao need to rest well le.. =[
tata..!

2007-09-05T23:45:00.000+08:00

oh ya.. was supposed to blog recently but was kinda too tired and filled with problems.. for the past last week was still enjoyable and really happy.. went to vivo to watch movie and walk ard.. met up with jun and kin with gf to cafe delma.. 2nd time to the pub le.. still the same.. ordered rasberry volka.. taste more of rasberry than volka.. lol.. we saw shootting star in the sky.. so lucky.. am so happy too.. ^^ stay a while till 12 plus den left le cuz jun had work in the morning.. went to eat prata first before going home to sleep.. hehe.. it was a nice, sweet and unforgetable night.. the next day, went to the conmex at suntec to purchase creative mp3.. cool.. just 99 bucks.. as for this few days, i have been kinda feeling down and stress out.. having super headache now.. its been so long since i last had this kind of headache.. =[

2007-09-04T00:09:00.000+08:00

fuck lar... super sad and hurt now.. dunno hw to expresss my feelings anymore.. dunno wat to say liao.. just feel like drownin my sorrows down.. am i really so irritating..

2007-09-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

another week.. gone.. muz be wondering why i did not blog recently..? lol.. yup was kinda paccked up and busy with programs these few days.. this few days can say super happening but of cuz super happy.. wanna know why..? tell me guys tml.. now no strength to type liao.. BATT OFFICIALLY LOW.. ahhaa.. night...

screw up..

2007-08-31T08:37:00.000+08:00

last day of the month.. felt so tired.. just wanted to take a break to go out have fun.. got a surprise ytd.. thanks.. really happy abt it.. for some reason was kinda pissed.. just dun understand why issit like tat now.. so sad and dulan for the whole night till cant sleep at all.. now super tired...

2007-08-30T00:40:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to say.. but just kinda upset with something... nvm abt it.. just now saw tonight's moon super big and round dunno why.. machiam like the moon is just close to earth only.. realised kinda into retro songs and shows.. lol.. saw the 15 year+ ago 's show.. where li nan xing they all just got into the showbiz.. tts all for now.. will blog after this month.. super tired now.. Night night!! =D

UNLUCKY DAY

2007-08-28T01:03:00.000+08:00

damn it.. its such an unlucky day to me.. i am working over at sri maju today in the morning.. everythings seems to be pretty normal at first until.... the first incident that makes my day.. i was serving one customer taking a bus to KL 9am in the morning.. i was kinda blur cos was packed with other things to do at the same time so kinda cock up.. i realised my money was short of $35 in my account so i double check my money again still it was short of tat amt.. i recalled that i 4got to take the money from that customer so i went to ask that customer in a very polite way but in the end he denied it and even shout and scold.. so i got kinda pissed up and just shut up lor.. went back to my counter and report to my in-charge yet he still came into our office and KP somemore.. so i got kinda dulan liao and told him the bus leaving liao u want u take now else just miss it. haha... no choice lor.. have to deduct money from pay.. -.-

second incident.. I was kinda depressed and "gon" from the first incident so i decided to go toilet to wee wee.. to my surprise.. the moment i step into the toilet.. i saw a fat ass man looking at me with tat tiko look and wink at me.. omg.. i tot i saw wrongly cuz there is another man behind me so i went to pee.. yet i saw him walking toward me when i was washing hand and he wink at me again.. fuck lar.. i am sure this time i was not wrong liao lar.. NBCB.. he even stalked me lor.. damn him lar.. so fucking pissed up.. his mother born him out to be tiko peh and so fucking gay?
worked there for almost 2 years le yet first time encounter incident like this.. told my colleagues they all yet they laughed and suan me saying i too pretty boy liao lar.. wtf.. HELLO?? do i even look so gaylish!?!?! fucking spoilt my day..

i even overslept during my journey back home.. missed three stops.. alighted at queensway.. damn suay lar today..@&^#@#&*^#@

PRAY TML's LUCK TO BE BETTER...!!!

2007-08-26T11:15:00.000+08:00

WoRk WoRk WoRk..! i am working right now!1 bOrrRInggg.. hahaha.. wat to do.. i ahve to earn more money lor.. by end of this month i have to earn enough money to keep myself alive lor.. heheheh.. YESH...!! another 5 days more to end of working life!! muahahhaha..! MUZ JIA YOU!!
later go walk walk le.. WeeeE~1!!!

Strange happenings

2007-08-23T09:26:00.000+08:00

its thursday finally.. meaning 1 more day till weekend.. woot! but still no off for this weeekend.. =[ anyway, here i am mugging hard? in the office.. BLOGGING.. lol.. morning is always so quiet and peaceful with my bosss.. yeahhh..! ^^ while i am on my way to the mrt, i notice the ad on the wall.. its another missing person ad.. craps.. why issit that so many ppl MIA recently.. singapore is just a small small dot.. yet there can still be ppl missing.. i really wonder wat happens to them and where are they... anyway.. to all my friends.. just be extra alert ba and take care!!

The PSP game that i have been playing recently.. cute and simple..

(3.5 out of 5 stars )

Here's some sceenshot abt it.. enjoy.. ^^

RUSH...

2007-08-20T09:28:00.000+08:00

man.. its monday again.. why does weekday come so fast yet weekend end so fast too.. its 20th today.. meaning another 10 more days or so to end of the months.. which also means 5 weeks to NS... ohhhh... time is really running out for me.. received a call ytd was kinda glad though.. oh ya! i just realised that i said i will blog and upload pictures ytd but end up did not post up anything.. hahaha.. sowwie abt tt... will try to post it up today or tml asap.. =D

some update on shows that i have recently watched...

Rush Hour 3 - Good and funny show.. 4 stars out of 5..

Secret by Jay Chou... 4 stars out of 5.. nice show but not so good ending...

881 - funny hokkien show... nt bad.. 3 stars out of 5..

Alone - Thailand ghost show... nice story but quite scary.. 3 stars out of 5

Harry Porter 4 - 3.5 stars out of 5.. Nice show but kinda disappointing cos the scene abit cramped together..

The Simpsons - super funny show.. 4 stars out of 5 !!

Lastly.. Transformers - 4 stars out of 5.. nice show.

another rush hour pictures that i found quite dumb..

and lastly.. the image of the condos that i have been staying over for queing for almost 3 days..

Soleil... the condos that is said to be the most spacious and expensive condos due to its location and other strong supporting factors..80% of the units sold on first day.. can u imagine that..? due to this fact... singaporeans became sooOOOoo KIASU... cutting que like nobody's business..shame man...

Will update this again when i reached home.. ^^

bUsY bUSy BuSy...

2007-08-19T08:54:00.000+08:00

woooo... been quite hectic recently.. so many things to do.. so little time.. as usual.. here i am on a weekend sunday working over at beach road.. though everything seems the same i remember, but something is abit missing.. and also something tt i saw today kinda bothers me.. haiz.. anyway, been quite fun and happy this week.. i will blog more later on and pictures after i have finished work and also cut my hair.. ^^

woot!!

2007-08-13T22:05:00.000+08:00

well.. today is still quite a happy day... nothing new or special but just felt like blogging cos i be away for 2 days ..? nahz.. this time i am not going overseas but just helping out my boss queing for condos.. of cos there is pay lar.. weee~ take this chance to experience staying overnight outside.. LOL.. gonna miss my bed the most.. and also my friends and someone lar.. =x
anyway.. I WANT TO BE RICH!!! lol.. dreaming to be rich till crazy liao.. i think i know where my directions in the future is liao.. ehee.. Tata guys..~ WooT~

2007-08-13T01:59:00.000+08:00

its 2am in the morning.. yet i still cant seems to sleep.. has been rolling on my bed for the past 1 hour plus...dun know to do blog also.. just felt kinda emo.. in fact i am really kinda sad and depressed recently.. no one to talk to abt my feelings.. maybe all i can do is only blog away my sadness ba.. hoping tml is a good start lor..

BROKE!

2007-08-12T09:34:00.000+08:00

Gosh.. realised many of my friends' birthday falls on this month.. my bank and i are running dry man.. whahahaha... =[ my best friend.yat birthday is coming too.. gonna get him something too.. So pooor thing.. awwww... anyone out there knows anyone that wanna have "little white face" tts cute and funny? LOL .. =X Nahz.. i wont do this kind of things one okay..? i have my pride.. hee.. plus am still quite happy now.. ^^ army army faster come... wanna faster serve the nation and get out of it soon.. wanna earn big big money instead of money like this... its like peanuts.. =.= I wannna drive BMW.. lol am i still dreaming..? yes! maybe i am.. but its a dream that will come true once i have the right time and opportunity.. someday.. someday...

anyway.. just wanna hereby wishing Augustine and Sasa HAPPY BIRTHDAY which is on 11/8/07 and also gina a happy irthday which on 12/8/07... but i will meeting hs and gangs later for celebrating gina's birthday and also a short gathering..? it seems everyone is so busy nowadays so do i.. but soon i will so free till dunno wat to do in the month of september.. cos gonna rest and do some training.. but by then kin, yat,nest,melvin and others have already went in ns..lol.. well at least i still get to see them BOTAK before i do... MUAhahhahahahhah.. .EVIL.. yes i know!! =O gonna give yat a combo set... wat is it you are thinking..? hehehe... well.. its just a............

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COMB - HAIRDRYER - WAX - HAIR DYE - MIRROR

WHAHAahhahhahahahhahahah!!!.. i am so EVIL!! bet on monday yat is gonna kill and swear me like !^@%^&#%^#%!

ehehhehe..!

oh Ya!! while i was working at sri maju today encounter a funny incident.. its like there is a deaf and mute man who happens to be our customer going to Hatyai, i totally could nt catch wat he is trying to say... and there we goes pointing here and there.. just like a duck and a chicken.. lol..i think maybe i should think abt taking up hand language course..=P

Today is the meteor rain day... its like a few years one time or so.. so everyone!! look out of your window whenever you can and you might happened to encounter "liu xing yu"!! eheheh!

hao xiang lian yi ge ren wor hor..? ^^ =P

Its Friday!!

2007-08-10T23:14:00.000+08:00

WeET! woke up quite early today.. was totally tired after ytd's soccer and bball day with nest and his friends.. found that some of them were my primary school and secondary friends.. so qiao lor.. lol.. nt bad lar.. exercise once a while is good.. but one things is that the next day.. u die.. cos too long nv exercise.. leg pain.. -__-... muz do more exercise le.. hahahh...went to sim lim to get krys' PINK psp for only 420 with set lor.. man... so sad sia..anyway.. we went to tiong to watch RH3.. quite funny lor.. =D really enjoyed today after 3 days of hell?? whahhahah j/k =P
gotta go work tml.. nite nite!!

National Day..

2007-08-09T17:45:00.000+08:00

ntwell.. its national day today.. Happy Birthday Singapore... I am happy for singapore as we had come so far even though we are just a small dot on the map.. we had plans for today... but its cancelled.. maybe due to my inconsideration again...kelvin why are u such a idiot... no plan.. no mood.. nothing... i am really tired... =[

Ohhh man......

2007-08-04T07:38:00.000+08:00

I have been sick since thursday due to throat infection..I was really beat after ytd shoppping at town though still did not totally recover..guess wat.. the next thing i knew is... i have to work 7am in the morning..meaning i have to wake up at 6am.. craps.. tts like dunno how many donkey years nv wake up so early le man...the alarm rang but guess i was totally tired that i did not even felt it..suddenly i just woke up at 6.55am.. its like.. OH SHIT..! i quickly got everything ready by 7.03am.. power har..? but still i am TOTALLY LATE...i took cab down to sri maju at golden mile complex 7.07 reached ard 15 mins later.. during the journey on ECP expressway.. I saw sunrise!! damn! its so nice.. its huge and red.. though it only last for a few second but still it did huge impact inside my mind...

In the evening, i went to allan's birthday over at pasir ris - Alorha coasta sands ( S14)

its been quite some time since i last had a chalet with my friends.. really missed those days.. anyway, by nightfall my voice suddenly changed to a low, "sexy" but irritating ? ahhaha.. guess my throat infection worsen ba.. no choice lor.. have to buy fish porridge to the chalet to eat.. while watching others eat fried stuffs and so many tempting food.. but none of it i am able to eat.. its a real torture man.. arghz.. =[

the cake ceremony was abt 12am cos some of his friends have not reached yet therefore we just have to sit down and rot while chatting with some long time no see friends.. realised some of my friends that we used to be real close were nt longer the same as before.. guess even close friends that did not contact for very long also become normal friends and even stranger.. tts abit heartbreaking.. but wat to do..? friends just walk in and out of ur life just like that.. even my friends are quite limited ever since my graduation..tts like quite pathetic and some grps just cant mix well..felt that both friendship and relationship are like a weight balancing each other..

after the singing of bday song, allan as usual still cant escape the fate of 21th bday been throw into the swimming pool and smashing of cake on his face but well its fun seeing many of his friends throwing cakes of him and he throw back just like primary school kids.. its nt a bad idea to enjoy or even just seeing them play like that cos it kinda brings back memories.. and so cos.. one by one got caught by allan and been thrown into the pool after allan got wet..ahha.. i was almost the "victim" but luckily i was sick.. phew.. anyway just wanna wish my bro, allan will be happy always.. he is really a very good bro to me..8 years plus of friendship and going..

we went home at ard 2am cos i really cannot tahan le after eating medicine felt super drowsy.. so request to go home early as i might have to work early in the morning 8am.. but all of my friends scolded me saying why am i so "chiong" to work without properly taking care of myself..? as compared to secondary days whereby even a slight feeling unwell.. i would nv go to school le.. lol.. maybe ppl do changed.. just felt like cherishing more of my time to earn money while i am still young but of cos i will not push myself too hard as i had promised not to let someone worried mah..and even my friends tooo.. =]

bad bad bad..

2007-08-02T11:22:00.000+08:00

woke up early in the morning 6am today.. why? cos i cant sleep well.. my throat is really killing me..just kinda have a hunch that i am gonna be sick very soon.. also received a news that kinda spoilt my day.. dun wanna talk abt it anymore.. one thing i just realised.. friends just walk into ur life and just go.. sometimes.. its like mars and venus.. they cant merge.. felt really kinda bitter in my heart.. its like been toss around..

The Whole New Month...

2007-08-01T09:20:00.000+08:00

Finally its the 1st of Aug!! meaning i am only left with 75 days or so? to ARMY LIFE!! all my friends have went into army already yet here i am still struggling with my work here man.. thats real pathetic.. but true enough lar.. i still can earn some money.. hmmmm.. had quite some relaxing over the weekend ba.. went to sim to accompany some shagua.. hahah.. =P i went over to NP to find kry. had some lunch at canteen where everything remains untouched, unchanged.. luckily for me, time passes quite fast though..

oh ya.. i remember hearing a story from yes9.33 fm before..it quite nice..here it goes..

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there was a little boy whom wanted to be happy and so he went on to pursue "幸福"
as he was dashing through the street, a man stopped him and asked him.

Man: little boy.. why are you in such a rush..?
Little Boy: dun stop me.. I am in a rush to pursue "幸福"..
and there he dash off...

as time passes... the little boy became a young man.. still trying to pursue "幸福" and there he goes dashing through the street once more..and this time he also met the same person stoping him..

Man: young man.. why are you in such a rush...?
Young Man: dun stop me now.. I am in a rush to pursue " 幸福"..
and there he dash off again..

By now.. the young man became an old man.. still trying to pursue "幸福" and there he goes dashing through the street again.. and still the same man stopped him again..

Man: old man.. why are you still in such a rush..?
Old Man: i am still trying to find and pursue my "幸福"..

the old man went off again.. but this time he came to realise that why issit the same guy who stopped him have not age at all..? the old man begin to cry.. tears just rolled down from his eyes non-stop..Now den he realised that the man was actually the "幸福之神" disguise as a normal person trying to stop the him in order to give him "幸福"...but he is too late as he already missed the chance 3 times..

The story is just trying to tell us.. if a person wanna be happy.. its easy..cos every little thing might be able to do the job.. but if a person wanan find "幸福" , its not that easy.. as chances are nt that often.. once you missed it.. its over... why not look around you and try to notice... maybe 幸福 might already have been beside you..? all you need to do is just cherish it...?
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after hearing it... i felt that the story really have its meaning.. and i think its true.. sometimes when we are too concentrated in something, we might tends to lose sight of the surrounding..
well.. gonna work!! else boss gonna kill me!! whahahha...

Sunday = Good Day? Nahz..

2007-07-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

as usual.. had work in the morning.. met up with quite a few of incidents at work thats enough to spoilt my day.. went to buy some stationary with anz afterwards and head home.. watched a tv show called High School Musical.. its really a nice show i muz say.. its been long time since i last watched Musial Play like this one... hope to have a chance to watch it before ns.. oh ya.. met up with fen and nest finally.. haha.. went to walk ard and caught the fireworks.. its nice to be able to see it.. i am tired.. not really a good day.. hahaa...

Yahooo!!!

2007-07-26T09:47:00.000+08:00

here i am.. sitting in the office doing work while at times blogging and surfing the net.. actually life is still quite alright.. i dun wanna complain too much also.. lol.. just that felt some of my poly friends were nt as close as we used to be.. its really sad.. things have change and life have change too.. everyone is busy with their work at hand.. no longer can we grp together and slack or have fun together.. i think its getting kinda ironic.. when u are out there in the society working, u would think of back to study.. and when you are studying, u would think of going to work and earn money.. haha... all of us are moving at a even faster pace than before.. girls have become ladies and working, while the guys have become man and serving the nation.. sometimes it would be good to slow down abit just to enjoy and cherish the things and enviornment ard u.. why not..? =D

Ugh... pain pain PAIN..

2007-07-25T10:01:00.000+08:00

arghz... crap lar.. this is totally crap man.. since ytd my upper left back of my body have been so painful.. its like a sharp pain whenever i try to bend or move around.. >.<>

anyone out there to be kind enough to give me a OSIM ?? LOL.. nahz.. maybe a massage will do the trip but hor.. muz HAVE licence to give massage wor..! ahha.. else i might end up in hospital. hehe.. well... enough said.. back to work! jaAA NAA!

BACK 2 WORK~~

2007-07-24T09:26:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. finally after 4 days of slacking since last week, i am ALIVE!!! re-charged!! and REBORN..!! mauhahaha.. though did not get to meet my friends much recently.. sowwie!! will try to meet u guys asap !! shan and gang! when are u guys free to meet up? lol.. lester will be going into army REAL soon.. its time for our grp gathering~~ =X anyway.. thanks for the few days anz dear. LOL =P

oh yes.. yat and belll.. when are we meeting again?? @*&#%^*@$%@*^#% ehehhehe.. wanna catch up with u guys soon.. yat bu yao wo le!! loL.. not to left out NEST and FEN, this coming sat if nv go sentosa, we go out slack also can!! ehehe.. nest u still owe me a soccer match together? ehehhe..

To be continued...

BaCk for MORE work!!

2007-07-20T09:47:00.000+08:00

lol... yes.. i am finally charged up abit after 3 days of resting without working.. ^^ we went to vivo, zoooo~ den lastly ytd rest up at home cos my australia aunt came gotta talk and accompany her in the morning lor.. anyway.. Woohoo!! it really felt great man..~~ i think i am gonna get addicted to SLACKING~~ whahhwwhaw.... but cannot leh.. No work = No MONEY!! which is something i cant live without..~!! =[ so wats the solution to my problem? i dun wanna work tt much also cant dun work wor.. maybe i shd reschedule my time table abit?? ehehhe.. next sat there will be a sentosa trip which i have been looking forward to for a long time...! Weee! Will update more again soon..! ^^

shaGz..

2007-07-16T11:58:00.000+08:00

sianz lar.. its monday again... meaning i still got 5 more days to weekend.. craps... its like soooo long man... i did not even really enjoy my weekends... my weekend time is spent on working again.. haiz... can i go on trip with you guys soon..? i am totally shag.. =[ nth much to talk abt in life too.. just the same.. am gonna go home soon... all i can say for today is... MONDAY BLUES!!! =D

In Memories Of My Hammie - FatFat

2007-07-14T21:06:00.000+08:00

I am really very sad today.. this morning i had work at Sri Maju at 8am.. initially my mood was still alright in the morning cos i had great food from irene, "Bee Ta Bat" and "Ching Chao"... i know i am a glutton.. if there is a choice, i would rather choose to go on food spree than shopping spree..

however... my mood was greatly affected after receiving a call from my mum... my hammie died this morning..its so cold.. fuck lar... i am really very upset lar.. damn.. almost shed tear during work.. i am not kidding.. its like how do u feel when ur pet have been with u for 2 years and 10 months.. though hamster's lifespan is abt 3 yrs and i almost knew that my ham ham is abit getting more and more strange recently.. ytd i am still playing with it cos it suddenly became for active like that.. keep wanting to get out of the cage to play with us.. I kinda had that feeling like when ppl wanna pass away that time.. they kinda became better..? something like wat they called in chinese.." Hui Guang Fan Zhao ".. I can no longer hold it in my arms anymore, no longer able to feel its smooth fur..no longer able to play or feed it.. somehow i felt my house is getting much quieter without my hammie.. silly am i? i actually treat it as part of my family long ago..i really dunno how to express my sadness anymore..all i know is.. seeing it as a baby ham till now.. the feelings is really special.. its like taking care of my own child to a grown-up.. i remember when we first brought it, it was very hyper-active but kinda scare i guess its shy and not familiar with us therefore whenever we tried to touch it, it might bite us and so we wear gloves to play with it.. but after been together with us for 1 year or so, we did not use gloves anymore as it do not bite us but instead it lick us.. i can say its the most cute and obedient hammie in my heart.. my hammie also likes us to put it inside a plastic round shape "ball" and let it run around in the house... seriously.. i really likes my hammie alot and I will miss it forever..

Arghz... really dunno wat to do lar.. this morning really felt so sad but dunno who to talk to.. really so heart-breaking... i have really decided le... i am gonna go for some relaxing activites next week.. gonna take a break real soon.. i wanna go gym tml i suppose...

My Hammie taken when its like 1 year old..

Another close shot at my cute hammie..(its trying to bite through the plastic)

Notice its eating the food left on the table?(Our little dustbin)

OMG!!

2007-07-13T12:51:00.000+08:00

lol.. well.. its nth serious anyway.. just realise today its Friday, the 13th.. lOl.. Spoookyyy~ BOO!

ahahha.. kinda lame of me i know =P well, do you guys really believe in this myth abt friday 13th as an unlucky day? well.. for my case.. i guess its better to believe than be sorry..! whahahha..

Damn.. this morning totally overslept.. am too exhausted to climb out of my bed to work.. therefore went back to sleep for another 2 hrs and woke up at 10.00am.. arrived my workplace at abt 11.00am.. crap.. there goes for my 2 hrs of work but well.. i dun mind cos i am kinda worn out from this long period of time working.. its like 6months? lol.. kinda remind me back den while i was working at HMV while waiting to be enrol into Ngee Ann.. most probably next month or sept month, am gonna work less hrs to go for spa? nahz.. hard to say.. but most likely... shopping spree and holiday relaxing at places like bali or tioman...

oh ya.. i also noticed that my blog still need to improve man.. shit.. its like after seeing other's blog.. i felt that my blog still have room for improvement.. will upgrade and do some changes asap when i have spare time this weekend.. ^^

Things I Wanted To Do Most...

Fitness Training
Shopping Spree
Food Spree
Travellig Overseas (Backpacking)
Do outdoor activities

2007-07-12T11:41:00.000+08:00

YESH!! its thursday le.. so fast..! kinda felt this week passes so fast.. weekend here i come..! oh yes and also Harry Porter 5, here i come!! whahhaa.. i guess i am a huge fan of Harry Porter!! ^^ today boss came to work so early.. =.= so sianx le lor.. cant do much things at all.. BORING...! lol.. ytd went to bugis to meet tofu~ to see my casio watch but looks like its damn gay on me lar.. *shivers* we ate at the parklane wanton mee and went for a walk at suntec lor.. hehehe.. we are super tired but still we enjoyed it..! =D

I have decided for sure that i am gonna get the Levi Watch.. needed a black leather strap watch desperately...ahhaha..yat!! u better not put me BIG BIG aeroplane.. lol.. =p

gonna meet up with my poly friends soon man.. really kinda miss them so much le.. mostly gonna go NS this month.. sianz lar..! i still got 2 months plus like that lor.!! tired of waiting man.. its like waiting to die.. plus 1/4 of my life is spent on queing-up.. lol.. better take up my sis's advice to enrol in some short courses or learn some new skill else my life would be REAL black and white.. hee..

Goals!1

2007-07-11T12:07:00.000+08:00

well.. I think its time to set my goals soon.. i realised in life there is alot of things i wanted to complete.. there are so much things i wanted to learn.. diving.. water-surfing.. golf.. and alot more.. i wanna go for sight-seeing around the world.. Wan li Chang Cheng.. and lots of places of interest...seriously... i really think i am gonna relax myself soon.. gonna go for holiday.. gonna go out and play.. i wanna get a LIFE! =.=

there are alot things i know it cant be forced... so its better to let things go its way.. =D
I am quite contented with anz, yat, jun, kin and many of my friends been there for me.. thanks ^^ lastly... Shan,Jocye,QP, lester, Kai jing and Kin!! when is our next meet upp..?! I am gonna organize a sentosa trip soon..wanna be a xiao hei yandao.! lol.. anyone interested??! faster report to me.!! hahahah...

Second wEek!!!

2007-07-09T09:27:00.000+08:00

yesH!!.. Its the second week finally.. =/ muz jia you man! cant slack too much le.. =[ anyway, for the past weekend, been meeting jun and guys out for a short slacking night out and with tofu's accompany, at least my weekend was not too bored.. hehe..am still waiting for my sentosa or any relaxing holiday trip man...

craps lar..! boss keep telling me to do lots of things recently.. =[ stress level increasing.. but still trying to cope with it.. hmmm.. maybe next week gonna find somemore events to relax or even lesson/courses to attend soon..

O.o

2007-07-05T10:02:00.000+08:00

Its another day working at office again!! =X jia you..!! man... really had a hard time trying to climb up of my bed.. die lar... i am really getting so Lan San.. money ah money please drop down from the sky ar!! -.-

oh ya! I had change my blogskin le.. nice right? ^^

btw.. i caused two of my friends to kinda quarrell.. i really felt so guilty and sad.. sorry to you two.. dun be unhappy le okay..? smile.. =D guess today is kinda a bad day..? had some misunderstanding with yat.. sianz lar... hate to have this kind of problem especially involving my bros... am i really such a lousy friend..? =/

BoRED!!

2007-07-04T09:56:00.000+08:00

Help ar!! i Am super bored ar!! in office so bored ar..! -__-

No one's here..! lol.. so quiet.. without YAT! the noisy WMB =/ahha..dun angry oh! =P and the rest.. hahaha.. someone owe me le hor! =x j/k lar.. next time den buy for u again ba.. :P

oh ya.. since today half day off.. might wanna change blogskin later on lor.

2007-07-03T10:27:00.001+08:00

Well.. my day started off kinda weird.. =.= was rushing off to work at around 9am cos i need to take mrt to work ma.. so when i was abt to pass through the mrt gate, did not realise my card could not worked and therefore hit myself against the gate.. lol.. blur right.. whhahahaha.. no choice lor.. have to check with the mrt person-in-charge lor.. gosh..guess wat? when i alight at TP, the same thing happened again..! crap..! there's so many ppl behind me somemore lor.. when i ask the person-in charge again.. all that he said was.. you walk too fast le..! LOL.. wth.. wats wrong man.. -__- tts why cant scan through.. hahah.. he sound like i am like the superhero character called "Flash" whhahahha... lame right...?

oh ya.. gonna change my blog skin soon..

I WANT TO GO FOR RELAXING HOLIDAY!!!

2007-07-02T14:08:00.000+08:00

though i know i just came back from holiday.. but guess wat... I AM REALLY TEMPTED TO GO HOLIDAY AGAIN!!! anyone wanna go for holidays together?? tioman, bali or any other places for some relaxing activities like spa? or even activities like rock climbling? forest tracking..? or best surf boarding?? crazy for relaxing le =.=

我要长大。。！

2007-06-28T10:49:00.000+08:00

我的心好沉重。在我的内心的莫个地方总是有一点怪怪的。。真不知道要如何说起。。终有一个感觉，我的朋友都没像以前那么要好了。。真得很不习惯。心中感到寂寞。。真的好想像以前一样找个地方来呐喊。。大海！！
约好了我的朋友来还他的东西便去找anz还harddisk和看电影。。 Thanks for the gift! 哈哈..
回家时，发生了一件事。。新加坡有那么多的16巴士和那么多的时间。。却刚好遇到cin在巴士上。。真不知道是巧合/缘分还是老天作弄我。。哈哈。。。不过这次我们就好像很久没有见面的朋友一样。。虽然还有联络但是感觉已经有一点陌生了。。她曾经对我说的话满有道理。。我们都有各自的朋友和生活了，和以前不一样了。。我只希望她快乐和开心，我就满足了。。

现在是我该长大了。。不能再像以前一样像个小孩子了。。我要和会长大的。。。我一定要实现我的拥车和理想的家园。。！！

前面的路可能不容易走。。可是我相信只要不放弃就会有一条路是对的。。。！加油。。!丰。。

UpDates..

2007-06-27T11:15:00.000+08:00

Just came back from holidays.. 我的心情好轻松可是 又一点烦躁... I am broke again.. =[ crap lar.. gotta work hard to earn all the money back le... lol... during the trip, seen and understand alot of things.. its really time for me to grow up.. there's alot of things waiting for me to do and complete..我要加油..!

I really hope things will get better for me.. cos I am really very tired of been hurt and disappointed.. I hope my friends will stay by me like always.. thanks guys.. oh ya.. thanks yat too.. lol.. appreciated for the trip.. ^^

will blog again soon.. to be continued..

HoliiiiiDaayyyyyyyysssssss

2007-06-21T00:45:00.000+08:00

Here i go again.. out of singapore for a few days... gonna go relax relax and do some sight-seeing while sorting things out... this time is with yat and my other friends.. WEEE...! i am sooo excited.. its.. 12.47am almost 1am le..have to wake up at 5am... Crapz... LoL... k lar.. i go rest a while le.. take care wor all my friends.. MISS ME BA... LOL.. =P

The Prelude..

2007-06-15T09:48:00.000+08:00

Another new chapter of my life is about the unfold.. will it be full of sadness again or will it be full of suprises, joyful and memorable event? The next chapter of my story will be Police Days.. (1 yr and 10 months)...

I wonder my life will have wat kind of ups and downs? will my friends still be there for me? will she still be there for me..? I dunno... wat appears in front of me is still kinda pitch black but i still can see a slight beam of light ahead.. hope that its a ray of hope..

Some critical updates abt my life would be... I FINALLY GRADUATED!! with a GPA of 3.23.. 3 Years of diploma studies in NP was really memorable.. still remember when i just got enrolled into year 1, I was just as lost as everyone else.. but soon enough everyone just got close enough to be good friends and even best friends.. met alot alot of ppl along the 3 years of journey.. also learnt how to overcome problems encountered.. be it friendship, relationship or kinship..

For this month of June.. Started a new working environment... no choice.. gotta work to earn some money while waiting for NS.. arghz... am getting tired of waiting and waiting for NS.. I really hope there would be some miracle appearing in my life soon... Holidays is coming for me too..! WEE!!! Finally can enjoyed abit..! YESH!!!

Hope that we wont be so mo sen... its really hurting...

some little updates..

2007-06-04T02:06:00.000+08:00

its another boring day.... been working for this weekend.. no break at all.. kill me plz... next week its my break days.. gotta find things to do.. wanna watch movie like shrek 3 and more.. its been almost a week since she ignored me... felt so pain still.. guess the misunderstanding will just stay the same like us.. its so useless of me.. whenever i saw her nick or msg pin pointing at me.. i really felt so hurt and sad.. the pain is really excruciating.. sometimes i asked myself why do we have to come to this point.. is there really no choice for me.. if so..all the i would hope for is to see her staying happy with her friends and getting good grade in her studies in order for her to realise her dreams to be a teacher.. i believe she can do so.. as for me.. i hope to stand on feet and realising and pursueing my own dream too.. anyway.. i really dunno wat the gals and guys are thinking nowadays man.. its so confusing.. maybe its just me too navie..

Updates..

2007-06-01T00:21:00.000+08:00

Guess the misunderstanding maybe too late to do/say anything now.. since she still think i am just the same.. i got nothing to say after trying so hard to change.. somehow somewhere in my heart still exist her... will still continue to care for her still even though as a normal friend as i believe she understand me more although there are times she dun.. though i had quite alot of past ex..but to me, she is the first love.. as she is the one that changed me and gave me joy, happiness, sadness and memories.. the one that i put the most effort in...till now.. she still misunderstood me.. really felt so hurt.. maybe the way i handled things are not good i guess..
its gone just like that..

My life have been real messed up this few days.. cant seems to concentrate in my work or even enjoy watever show or outing..went to watch Pirates of carribean with yat,anz,fenfen,ernest and jun at lido.. was funny.. i really like it.. especially Johnny Depp.. was able to make me laugh out from the bottom of my heart.. was kinda stress relief.. its better than drowning myself in wine recently.. Shrek 3 is coming up next.. still remember watch part 1 and 2 with her.. haiz.. nvm.. hope to watch it soon.. sorry to worry you guys recently.. thanks yat for consoling me..just really hope to clear the misunderstanding soon.. really hate to be misunderstood by anyone..especially thinking me as flirt when i am really no longer the same.. hope she remained happy everyday with her friends and thats all i wished for since i cant even stay by her like in the past.. will try to get on my feet fast..

Down...

2007-05-28T23:49:00.000+08:00

Been some days since i last blog.. anyway..for me.. it has already lost the meaning to blog.. i really think my life really has lost its colours and happiness... am i late by a step again or..? am i gonna lose my precious ones again...? I think i am reallly gonna take a break soon... reaching my limits le.. been working almost everyday including weekends for almost 3 months le.. friends around me keep saying i am lifeless.. yes.. i agree... wheere issss my Xin fuu.......? i wish my angel is right here with me now..

btw.. something just totally makes me more sad.. finally got the courage to msg her again yet only to find out a quarrell with her.. I know no matter wat i say or explain will make her feel better anymore.. maybe its my fault for having a liking for others.. but i also a human.. i rather hope that she could be by my side to accompany and cheer me.. I had explained to her le yet i know she wont believe watever things i said but everything i explained is a fact.. i really hope that she could calm down and think over wat i said.. i know last time i did make a terrible mistake but that does not mean i am still the same as last time.. just really hope a have a good chat with her and solved this properly..even if she just treat me as a friend.. i know this time its over cos the way she treat me.. i really feel so depressed right now.. maybe sorry wont mean anything but still just wanna say a sorry...though i really hen bu gan yuan it had to end it this way without clarifying everything properly.. but i really dun wanna hurt her anymore.. maybe i really am not cut out to care for her not to even mention love her.. i am such a failure.. i hope she can find happiness in him or whoever the lucky guy is... no matter wat happens now... i will still stick to the promise i made..